Never Quite What You Want

Hey there, all...

Spent the morning being hounded by people I didn't necessarily want to be hounded by, while being politely shunned by people I *did* want to talk to. I hate to think that I'm one of those people that hounds folks when they don't really want to talk to me, but that's a feeling I can't shake.

Should I be grateful when I receive attention and hang out with folks that I really don't feel fit, or should I blow them off with a nice "You're not my type?". I get the feeling that I'm at that mid-point on a totem pole, pursuing other things while being pursued. And something tells me that karma pretty much dictates what my eventual outcome will be, based on my decision. I want to do the right thing, but I don't want to be dishonest. Grr.

NaNoWriMo is two days away. My Excite fortune cookie told me to "grab the brass ring" in that amount of time. OK, sure...I don't know if I can hold on to it for another thirty, though.

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I Wanna Fall In Love Tonight

Hey there, all...

Quick progress report.

Got 6 of 9 characters for ??Salvation?? done, and I'm thinking that I can hack on the last three and have them finished by tonight. That would make me feel *really* good.

I can't find my Boomer Express file for the month of October, so I'm going to have to wait until I can go home and try to dig it up so I can find out where the hell I left off. o.O I'm going to at *least* have the first week of November done by tonight so I can send it off to Tyrnn. I'd hate to leave him stranded with nothing to go on by Thursday....he's a pretty glib storyteller, and I know he'll think of something, but that shouldn't be his responsibility. :P

I'm doing surprisingly well with the food. I only had the lemon sandwich cookies, popcorn chicken and a glass of water today, and I'll fix a sandwich and eat the pastries for dinner. For some reason, I haven't been all that hungry lately. Maybe it's stress or underlying tension or some such, but the moment food touches my lips I really don't...want it. I'm thinking about picking up some vitamins or some such at a store to keep my energy levels up. Gods know I'm going to need *something*. :)

The Green Eyed Monster was very strong today. I'm not sure what to do about it besides lobotomize myself, but I'll think of something.

Good News: I got "All Of This Love" by Pam Tillis today. The music is as good as I remember, and that's really cool. :) I can't wait to get "Sweetheart's Dance" a little later.

Bad News: "Rent" was completely sold out. :( My only chance of getting tickets now is to hope that I'm one of the first 20 people in line for a special batch of tickets the production company sells one hour before each performance. I'm going to pretty much camp out right after work on Friday to get the tix. I'll bring a notebook and pencil to get writing done while I wait, and I'll either ask Don ahead of time if he can take me home or ask Odis or someone to pick me up once the show's over. I really don't want to do this alone...anyone up for camping out with me?

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