Ramadan: A Few Revelatory Boxing Gloves
Dec. 12th, 2001 05:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Hey there, all...
Well, I discovered quite a few things today.
1. I'm coming down with a cold. Boo.
2. Ramadan (officially) ends on Friday, but I'm thinking I should stretch it out, just to see if I could do it.
3. Several spirituality-based things that I will describe here.
OK. the first one that springs to mind is, well...that I was hungry today, and it actually felt good. I can't really explain why without sounding like some kind of kook, or going into this weird, over-long rationalization that would ruin the feeling, but...it really felt good.
I guess it was because it made me feel more human in a way, to actually know that I can still 'want/need' things on a very basic level. In this land of overindulgence and extremes, it felt good to have that humble little growling voice in your stomach.
And maybe that's the whole point of Ramadan.
I've been making progress with regards to my spirituality. Admittedly, it's been a very snail-like pace, but it's better than the absolute standstill I've been suffering for a while. I've learned one or two things over the weekend that I wish I could chew over and learn from, but unfortunately my vices (the Internet) and way too much company doesn't really make for much solitude.
I'm getting quite a bit more comfortable now with my 'brand' of Raven, so to speak; I still have quite a bit to learn, but I think I have the confidence to move forward with the Lessons now. If only I could find a plausible way to live in the Pacific Northwest for a while... :/
I've been grumpy lately, and I think that's a combination of feeling a bit more corvid than usual (maybe it's a seasonal thing?) and constant sleeplessness and a little bit of hunger. Maybe I should take better care of myself and actually accomplish something, just so I won't reside in this vast pit of self-loathing.
Speaking of which, a laundry list of things I need to do:
1. Make tapes.
2. Make Christmas presents.
3. Clean workspace.
4. Practice drawing.
5. WRITE SHORT STORIES.
Yup, 'tis the season. :)
On a completely unrelated note, I had this weird dream about me writing four poems to four lovers based on the elements, with nothing but a raven's feather and sheepskin parchment to candle-light. I've written two of the poems so far, but I think I'll re-write one, just because I really didn't like the way it turned out.
Anyway, I thought about the lovers that I would write to, and they ended up being...well, four people I consider the most important to me: Sylvan (Fire), Odis (Water), Wendell/Lou (Earth), and Blackfeather (Air). The gifts these people have given me far exceeds any kind of repayment I can possibly give, but I think I'll do my damndest anyway. Look for more poetry, at any rate.
That's all for now, I guess. Take care!
David
Well, I discovered quite a few things today.
1. I'm coming down with a cold. Boo.
2. Ramadan (officially) ends on Friday, but I'm thinking I should stretch it out, just to see if I could do it.
3. Several spirituality-based things that I will describe here.
OK. the first one that springs to mind is, well...that I was hungry today, and it actually felt good. I can't really explain why without sounding like some kind of kook, or going into this weird, over-long rationalization that would ruin the feeling, but...it really felt good.
I guess it was because it made me feel more human in a way, to actually know that I can still 'want/need' things on a very basic level. In this land of overindulgence and extremes, it felt good to have that humble little growling voice in your stomach.
And maybe that's the whole point of Ramadan.
I've been making progress with regards to my spirituality. Admittedly, it's been a very snail-like pace, but it's better than the absolute standstill I've been suffering for a while. I've learned one or two things over the weekend that I wish I could chew over and learn from, but unfortunately my vices (the Internet) and way too much company doesn't really make for much solitude.
I'm getting quite a bit more comfortable now with my 'brand' of Raven, so to speak; I still have quite a bit to learn, but I think I have the confidence to move forward with the Lessons now. If only I could find a plausible way to live in the Pacific Northwest for a while... :/
I've been grumpy lately, and I think that's a combination of feeling a bit more corvid than usual (maybe it's a seasonal thing?) and constant sleeplessness and a little bit of hunger. Maybe I should take better care of myself and actually accomplish something, just so I won't reside in this vast pit of self-loathing.
Speaking of which, a laundry list of things I need to do:
1. Make tapes.
2. Make Christmas presents.
3. Clean workspace.
4. Practice drawing.
5. WRITE SHORT STORIES.
Yup, 'tis the season. :)
On a completely unrelated note, I had this weird dream about me writing four poems to four lovers based on the elements, with nothing but a raven's feather and sheepskin parchment to candle-light. I've written two of the poems so far, but I think I'll re-write one, just because I really didn't like the way it turned out.
Anyway, I thought about the lovers that I would write to, and they ended up being...well, four people I consider the most important to me: Sylvan (Fire), Odis (Water), Wendell/Lou (Earth), and Blackfeather (Air). The gifts these people have given me far exceeds any kind of repayment I can possibly give, but I think I'll do my damndest anyway. Look for more poetry, at any rate.
That's all for now, I guess. Take care!
David
