And Now For The Rest of the Story
Jan. 28th, 2003 12:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Hey there, all.
Somehow I lost 2 LJ friends this week. Hmm.
I haven't updated much recently mainly because I haven't found much that's worth talking about. I could go on about how I feel stagnant and disconnected for the 87th time, but what's the point? You don't need to hear all that kind of negative stuff, and lately I've felt that I just don't need to be saying it.
I've been trying to put my nose to the grindstone with varying success. I'm definitely working harder, but it's still not a level that produces as much as I'd like. I don't want to burn myself out, definitely, but there's got to be a way I can do more.
For some reason, the whole "FC is happening" thing didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. It'll probably bother me a little later when 2 comes back and talks about what an *awesome* con he had. That will most likely make me a wee bit jealous.
I don't know if I've admitted before that I'm a jealous person, but I am. I really don't like that part of myself, particularly since my jealousies are about people who honestly wouldn't be worth getting jealous over. Not to say that they're bad people, but in order to get where I 'want' to with them, I'd have to change and compromise myself a whole lot more than I'd want to. And right now, figuring out who I am and sticking with that is more important to me than being friends with certain people.
Still, I worry that I'm becoming bitter and anti-social.
Let's see...several short stories to write, Boomer Express and ??Salvation?? strips to finish, and finally committing a "Bird" script to paper. I'd better get back to work.
Somehow I lost 2 LJ friends this week. Hmm.
I haven't updated much recently mainly because I haven't found much that's worth talking about. I could go on about how I feel stagnant and disconnected for the 87th time, but what's the point? You don't need to hear all that kind of negative stuff, and lately I've felt that I just don't need to be saying it.
I've been trying to put my nose to the grindstone with varying success. I'm definitely working harder, but it's still not a level that produces as much as I'd like. I don't want to burn myself out, definitely, but there's got to be a way I can do more.
For some reason, the whole "FC is happening" thing didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. It'll probably bother me a little later when 2 comes back and talks about what an *awesome* con he had. That will most likely make me a wee bit jealous.
I don't know if I've admitted before that I'm a jealous person, but I am. I really don't like that part of myself, particularly since my jealousies are about people who honestly wouldn't be worth getting jealous over. Not to say that they're bad people, but in order to get where I 'want' to with them, I'd have to change and compromise myself a whole lot more than I'd want to. And right now, figuring out who I am and sticking with that is more important to me than being friends with certain people.
Still, I worry that I'm becoming bitter and anti-social.
Let's see...several short stories to write, Boomer Express and ??Salvation?? strips to finish, and finally committing a "Bird" script to paper. I'd better get back to work.
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Hey there, all.
Somehow I lost 2 LJ friends this week. Hmm.
I haven't updated much recently mainly because I haven't found much that's worth talking about. I could go on about how I feel stagnant and disconnected for the 87th time, but what's the point? You don't need to hear all that kind of negative stuff, and lately I've felt that I just don't need to be saying it.
I've been trying to put my nose to the grindstone with varying success. I'm definitely working harder, but it's still not a level that produces as much as I'd like. I don't want to burn myself out, definitely, but there's got to be a way I can do more.
For some reason, the whole "FC is happening" thing didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. It'll probably bother me a little later when 2 comes back and talks about what an *awesome* con he had. That will most likely make me a wee bit jealous.
I don't know if I've admitted before that I'm a jealous person, but I am. I really don't like that part of myself, particularly since my jealousies are about people who honestly wouldn't be worth getting jealous over. Not to say that they're bad people, but in order to get where I 'want' to with them, I'd have to change and compromise myself a whole lot more than I'd want to. And right now, figuring out who I am and sticking with that is more important to me than being friends with certain people.
Still, I worry that I'm becoming bitter and anti-social.
Let's see...several short stories to write, Boomer Express and ??Salvation?? strips to finish, and finally committing a "Bird" script to paper. I'd better get back to work. <:)
And before I forget. I'm a LJ Quiz Sheep. Baaa, ram, ewe.
<a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Gaius37/quizzes/What%20ASB%20Character%20Are%20You%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/Gaius37/1043591031_tuffgerald.gif" border="0" alt="Gerald"><br> <font size="-1">What ASB Character Are You?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>
Somehow I lost 2 LJ friends this week. Hmm.
I haven't updated much recently mainly because I haven't found much that's worth talking about. I could go on about how I feel stagnant and disconnected for the 87th time, but what's the point? You don't need to hear all that kind of negative stuff, and lately I've felt that I just don't need to be saying it.
I've been trying to put my nose to the grindstone with varying success. I'm definitely working harder, but it's still not a level that produces as much as I'd like. I don't want to burn myself out, definitely, but there's got to be a way I can do more.
For some reason, the whole "FC is happening" thing didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. It'll probably bother me a little later when 2 comes back and talks about what an *awesome* con he had. That will most likely make me a wee bit jealous.
I don't know if I've admitted before that I'm a jealous person, but I am. I really don't like that part of myself, particularly since my jealousies are about people who honestly wouldn't be worth getting jealous over. Not to say that they're bad people, but in order to get where I 'want' to with them, I'd have to change and compromise myself a whole lot more than I'd want to. And right now, figuring out who I am and sticking with that is more important to me than being friends with certain people.
Still, I worry that I'm becoming bitter and anti-social.
Let's see...several short stories to write, Boomer Express and ??Salvation?? strips to finish, and finally committing a "Bird" script to paper. I'd better get back to work. <:)
And before I forget. I'm a LJ Quiz Sheep. Baaa, ram, ewe.
<a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Gaius37/quizzes/What%20ASB%20Character%20Are%20You%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/Gaius37/1043591031_tuffgerald.gif" border="0" alt="Gerald"><br> <font size="-1">What ASB Character Are You?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>
