Choking Grasp of Hateful Death
Jan. 13th, 2003 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Hey there, all...
I've been in a downward spiral since, oh, about last weekend I think. My relationship with someone went south pretty fast, and since then I've been in this "I-hate-everyone-for-being-a-selfish-bastard" mode that hasn't quite gone away. It's a pretty cynical view of the world, and I'm chiding myself for having it, but so far I haven't quite gotten out of the cycle.
Part of the package deal is that most of the things I've found relax me out of such moods have proven tremendously frustrating. Only in a disastrous game of Monopoly (I don't understand how one can have red and dark blue (Boardwalk and Park Place) monopolies and the other playes not land on it, even once.) did I find salvation. I got so frustrated I considered quitting for abotu 30 minutes every time something went wrong, but I hung in there, took my defeat on the chin and walked away with a severely bruised ego.
People just...piss me off sometimes. I'm not going to turn this into a "My friends are not being good friends." rant because they *are* being good friends. I'm just being nitpicky and hypersensitive about things I can't help. Well, that's just a part of it. Honestly, it has been one of the worst weekends as far as timing and luck goes that I can remember. Nothing seems to go my way, and that just deepens my frustration. Stuff that I would normally be able to handle alone piles up and turns me into one festering pile of pissiness and death-wishing.
So, if you've seen me these past couple days, and I've been unduly curt, apologies now. I'll be stormy for a little while yet.
I feel a bit better now, at least.
I've been in a downward spiral since, oh, about last weekend I think. My relationship with someone went south pretty fast, and since then I've been in this "I-hate-everyone-for-being-a-selfish-bastard" mode that hasn't quite gone away. It's a pretty cynical view of the world, and I'm chiding myself for having it, but so far I haven't quite gotten out of the cycle.
Part of the package deal is that most of the things I've found relax me out of such moods have proven tremendously frustrating. Only in a disastrous game of Monopoly (I don't understand how one can have red and dark blue (Boardwalk and Park Place) monopolies and the other playes not land on it, even once.) did I find salvation. I got so frustrated I considered quitting for abotu 30 minutes every time something went wrong, but I hung in there, took my defeat on the chin and walked away with a severely bruised ego.
People just...piss me off sometimes. I'm not going to turn this into a "My friends are not being good friends." rant because they *are* being good friends. I'm just being nitpicky and hypersensitive about things I can't help. Well, that's just a part of it. Honestly, it has been one of the worst weekends as far as timing and luck goes that I can remember. Nothing seems to go my way, and that just deepens my frustration. Stuff that I would normally be able to handle alone piles up and turns me into one festering pile of pissiness and death-wishing.
So, if you've seen me these past couple days, and I've been unduly curt, apologies now. I'll be stormy for a little while yet.
I feel a bit better now, at least.
