Exter-putting
Nov. 11th, 2002 08:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Hey there, all...
Work was work, I'm digging it so far. I have a plan of action about how to get my little sections in order, but I have to run them through the crotchety old boss first...he's sure not to like it, but it'll take wearing him down over the week to get him to warm up to it. ;)
Visiting a friend in Kansas City...he's a pretty good friend, but like most equines, impossible to figure out sometimes. This leads to quite a few interesting debates...this weekend alone we talked about transgenderism, tarot, LiveJournals, and a couple other things, all on completely different sides. Sometimes I think he just lives to play the Devil's Advocate. :) Nonetheless, it's been pretty fun and at the very least, moderately relaxing.
I didn't get to see all of "Hamlet" on Friday night, which bugged me quite a bit. I had to leave after the first two acts to get picked up for home. It was an interesting production, despite the fact that I started nodding off about an hour before the intermission. I'm guessing it turned out to be around 3.5 hours long...and it wasn't *that* good.
Now that I've gotten to do a bit of socializing (at least, more than I usually do), I've had the distinct feeling of being stuck out of the loop. Nothing new, there, but my reaction to the ever-present realization has changed. Now, it's like, yeah, I'm out, and it kind of sucks because I would like to be in. But it's too much work, and I'd have to compromise too much of who I am and what I'm into to get into that loop. I'm happier here, and there's interesting stuff going on here, too. Maybe other people will think so once I'm ready to share.
I don't think that I'll ever be...well-liked. But because I'm a wannabe actor (and Leo), I'll always have the desire and drive to be famous. I don't know...sometimes, I don't mind the perceived distance between myself and the various communities I frequent. It does afford me unique opportunities, I suppose. But at the same time, I really do want to connect, sometimes even on a superficial level. I think that I secretly like being apart from things, for some reason, and I haven't reconciled that part with the basic human need for contact. It's probably something I should look into.
Gave a tarot reading to Stark yesterday. It was interesting, but I can tell I need a bit more practice with the cards, getting a feel for them and whatnot. I'll try to work on that a bit more, with just about everything else.
Let's see...rest today, I think I'm just going to take it easy and let whatever comes, come. I want to get started on Attempt No. 5 at least, see about rewriting the first two months of ??Salvation??, e-mail a few people and get started on poetry writing again. <:) So much to do! I'll just pick the project that seems like the most fun, and run with it.
Work was work, I'm digging it so far. I have a plan of action about how to get my little sections in order, but I have to run them through the crotchety old boss first...he's sure not to like it, but it'll take wearing him down over the week to get him to warm up to it. ;)
Visiting a friend in Kansas City...he's a pretty good friend, but like most equines, impossible to figure out sometimes. This leads to quite a few interesting debates...this weekend alone we talked about transgenderism, tarot, LiveJournals, and a couple other things, all on completely different sides. Sometimes I think he just lives to play the Devil's Advocate. :) Nonetheless, it's been pretty fun and at the very least, moderately relaxing.
I didn't get to see all of "Hamlet" on Friday night, which bugged me quite a bit. I had to leave after the first two acts to get picked up for home. It was an interesting production, despite the fact that I started nodding off about an hour before the intermission. I'm guessing it turned out to be around 3.5 hours long...and it wasn't *that* good.
Now that I've gotten to do a bit of socializing (at least, more than I usually do), I've had the distinct feeling of being stuck out of the loop. Nothing new, there, but my reaction to the ever-present realization has changed. Now, it's like, yeah, I'm out, and it kind of sucks because I would like to be in. But it's too much work, and I'd have to compromise too much of who I am and what I'm into to get into that loop. I'm happier here, and there's interesting stuff going on here, too. Maybe other people will think so once I'm ready to share.
I don't think that I'll ever be...well-liked. But because I'm a wannabe actor (and Leo), I'll always have the desire and drive to be famous. I don't know...sometimes, I don't mind the perceived distance between myself and the various communities I frequent. It does afford me unique opportunities, I suppose. But at the same time, I really do want to connect, sometimes even on a superficial level. I think that I secretly like being apart from things, for some reason, and I haven't reconciled that part with the basic human need for contact. It's probably something I should look into.
Gave a tarot reading to Stark yesterday. It was interesting, but I can tell I need a bit more practice with the cards, getting a feel for them and whatnot. I'll try to work on that a bit more, with just about everything else.
Let's see...rest today, I think I'm just going to take it easy and let whatever comes, come. I want to get started on Attempt No. 5 at least, see about rewriting the first two months of ??Salvation??, e-mail a few people and get started on poetry writing again. <:) So much to do! I'll just pick the project that seems like the most fun, and run with it.
