Don't Don't
Oct. 24th, 2002 07:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Hey there, all...
Last night was kind of mixed. Didn't go to yoga class like I thought; my neighbor messed up her back somehow and pulled out. Completely understandable, I say...if you screw up your spine before something like yoga, even light stuff will probably Not Help.
So, I spent last evening on-line, which was a pretty mixed bag. For the most part, it was OK. Two people I hadn't heard from in a long time and I had a 'bonding' session, so that was cool. I sort of 'gave up' on a few others, too, and that really sucked. I'm still not sure *who* was being the unreasonable one in an argument I had...it seems like a pretty silly argument to have now that I look back on it, but I'm still left with a general bad taste in my mouth from the whole affair. I would say I'd just sit back and let that person approach me if they had something to say, but they won't, because they're not that kind of person. So I suppose it's just over...at least until I want to try and 'patch things up' again. Mmm, I just love cycles.
I'm faced with the double task of removing associations that I feel are too much trouble to try and keep up, but also of making sure *I* don't turn into one of those people who I'm having so much trouble with. I really hate to think that people are trying with me, and I'm brushing them off for whatever reason. That just sucks...I'm working on trying to be more open, thusly, whether people want it or not. <:) I just found out that a friend of mine who lives *right next door* is going through a rough spot, too, and he feels like he doesn't have anyone he can turn to. That made me feel pretty shitty, I'll have to go and see if I can't...help in some way. Work tonight, then around to visit friends, and maybe some on-line stuff. National Novel Writing Month starts November 1st, Ramadan starts November 6th, and I have a short story 'due' by Thanksgiving. I'd also like to write people short stories for Christmas (I've always thought short stories were self-indulgent, egotistical, *awful* presents for other people...but I can't think of *anything* else that'd be nearly as good.). So if I can keep my willpower, I'll be a fasting recluse hermit. <:) But I'll have accomplished a lot on the other side of it, so that'd be good. And now, on to a shower and things.
Last night was kind of mixed. Didn't go to yoga class like I thought; my neighbor messed up her back somehow and pulled out. Completely understandable, I say...if you screw up your spine before something like yoga, even light stuff will probably Not Help.
So, I spent last evening on-line, which was a pretty mixed bag. For the most part, it was OK. Two people I hadn't heard from in a long time and I had a 'bonding' session, so that was cool. I sort of 'gave up' on a few others, too, and that really sucked. I'm still not sure *who* was being the unreasonable one in an argument I had...it seems like a pretty silly argument to have now that I look back on it, but I'm still left with a general bad taste in my mouth from the whole affair. I would say I'd just sit back and let that person approach me if they had something to say, but they won't, because they're not that kind of person. So I suppose it's just over...at least until I want to try and 'patch things up' again. Mmm, I just love cycles.
I'm faced with the double task of removing associations that I feel are too much trouble to try and keep up, but also of making sure *I* don't turn into one of those people who I'm having so much trouble with. I really hate to think that people are trying with me, and I'm brushing them off for whatever reason. That just sucks...I'm working on trying to be more open, thusly, whether people want it or not. <:) I just found out that a friend of mine who lives *right next door* is going through a rough spot, too, and he feels like he doesn't have anyone he can turn to. That made me feel pretty shitty, I'll have to go and see if I can't...help in some way. Work tonight, then around to visit friends, and maybe some on-line stuff. National Novel Writing Month starts November 1st, Ramadan starts November 6th, and I have a short story 'due' by Thanksgiving. I'd also like to write people short stories for Christmas (I've always thought short stories were self-indulgent, egotistical, *awful* presents for other people...but I can't think of *anything* else that'd be nearly as good.). So if I can keep my willpower, I'll be a fasting recluse hermit. <:) But I'll have accomplished a lot on the other side of it, so that'd be good. And now, on to a shower and things.
