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I'm not sure what happened yesterday, but it wasn't easy to wake up on time. I had trouble focusing on work, and by the end of the day I was just...done. I didn't really want to do anything. I had just enough gas in the tank to make dinner, but I spent the rest of the evening playing Banners of Ruin and watching TV.
This happens at least once a week, where I just run out of gas and need to do nothing for a little while. I don't know if it's something that can be resolved with, say, exercise, or if I should work around it with the knowledge that Wednesday will be like a mini-weekend. Well, maybe not Wednesday since that's our traditional D&D night -- but Thursday. I'll try it on next week and see how it feels.
But that means that writing and the Masterclass have both stalled a little bit. Game prep isn't quite where I wanted it to be by this time in the week so I'll be playing hooky from work in the afternoon to get that ready. Don't tell anyone, OK? And I can spend some time this weekend catching up on my studies and writing as well. It'll feel good to start indulging in productive hobbies again over the weekend, I've kinda missed it.
At work, I've been preparing for the launch of another scholarship program -- or rather, the next phase of one I'm already responsible for. It's pretty interesting, thinking back on my progress over this year stepping into an entirely new position. I was so nervous but hopeful, and now I feel pretty confident with what I do. I'm learning better ways to work, better ways to communicate with everyone who pitches in to do this, and a better attitude with students who do annoying things. I've gotten my feet under me enough that I can stretch a little more and work to improve things for my fellow Community Managers next year.
My manager sent me the end-of-year reflection document, so that sense of progress is top of mind at my day job. I know that I'm not where a lot of the more senior community managers are -- and there are even some folks who've come behind me who got up to speed with surprising speed -- but I'm happy with the gains that I've made and I'm looking forward to being more helpful.
I've fashioned myself as a strong communicator at work, especially in a team where English is a second language for most. But I could be a lot better! I really want to refine my writing over the next year so it's more concise and I have a better control of tone. I think one of the ways we let down our students is an unpolished style of communication, so making sure we give information in a clear, concise manner is really important to me. If I can do that -- and help the team improve this with tips and tricks -- it makes the overall student experience better and cuts down so much on confusion that ends up affecting other teams.
Brevity will come in handy elsewhere, too. Preparing for games is a learning process because my temptation is to write in prose to really sink into the atmosphere I'm trying to create, but it's not at all useful when I'm trying to read over notes at the table. Learning how to shorten ideas down to a few key words that gets the point across will help a lot with translating my vision into reality.
I've been out of Prozac for a few days now; the end of the bottle caught me by surprise, so I put in a rush order at the pharmacy. It's ready, so I'll probably dip out after the program launch to pick it up and create the account for my mom's estate at long last. Once that's done, all I'll need is my brother's death certificate so we can move forward with the insurance claim. Then, the whole process of making her death 'official' will be over.
There's also the little matter of getting Adderall. I put in a request for that, too, but the prescription hasn't been filled yet. I'm not sure if my psychiatrist is sitting on the request or if the shortage is making it harder to get. Either way, it might be a good opportunity to practice focus techniques while I'm not medicated. I've got a few ADHD books on that and it'd be cool to test out. Then, when the prescription is filled again I'll be even MORE PRODUCTIVE MWAHAHAHAHA -- or I could even decide that I don't need the Adderall after all. I doubt that, but it's a possibility.
It's only 16 days until Christmas and I've done absolutely nothing for it, which is sadly on-brand for me. I've been writing Christmas prep down as a Bullet Journal goal for days now, but between work and writing and everything else there never seems to be time for it. I think I'll really drill down into it this weekend, get a gifts list going and finalize things with Ryan. It's...probably too late for cards this year, I'm very sad to say. When I move into next year's Bullet Journal, I'll add Christmas prep deadlines to my year-at-a-glance spread so hopefully that will help.
When I open my meditation app each morning, there's a quote of the day. Today's really struck me: "What is our purpose in life, but to make it easier for others?" That feels like a great guiding principle. Life is hard. Inherently. One of the best things we can do is lift the burden from others where we can.
This happens at least once a week, where I just run out of gas and need to do nothing for a little while. I don't know if it's something that can be resolved with, say, exercise, or if I should work around it with the knowledge that Wednesday will be like a mini-weekend. Well, maybe not Wednesday since that's our traditional D&D night -- but Thursday. I'll try it on next week and see how it feels.
But that means that writing and the Masterclass have both stalled a little bit. Game prep isn't quite where I wanted it to be by this time in the week so I'll be playing hooky from work in the afternoon to get that ready. Don't tell anyone, OK? And I can spend some time this weekend catching up on my studies and writing as well. It'll feel good to start indulging in productive hobbies again over the weekend, I've kinda missed it.
At work, I've been preparing for the launch of another scholarship program -- or rather, the next phase of one I'm already responsible for. It's pretty interesting, thinking back on my progress over this year stepping into an entirely new position. I was so nervous but hopeful, and now I feel pretty confident with what I do. I'm learning better ways to work, better ways to communicate with everyone who pitches in to do this, and a better attitude with students who do annoying things. I've gotten my feet under me enough that I can stretch a little more and work to improve things for my fellow Community Managers next year.
My manager sent me the end-of-year reflection document, so that sense of progress is top of mind at my day job. I know that I'm not where a lot of the more senior community managers are -- and there are even some folks who've come behind me who got up to speed with surprising speed -- but I'm happy with the gains that I've made and I'm looking forward to being more helpful.
I've fashioned myself as a strong communicator at work, especially in a team where English is a second language for most. But I could be a lot better! I really want to refine my writing over the next year so it's more concise and I have a better control of tone. I think one of the ways we let down our students is an unpolished style of communication, so making sure we give information in a clear, concise manner is really important to me. If I can do that -- and help the team improve this with tips and tricks -- it makes the overall student experience better and cuts down so much on confusion that ends up affecting other teams.
Brevity will come in handy elsewhere, too. Preparing for games is a learning process because my temptation is to write in prose to really sink into the atmosphere I'm trying to create, but it's not at all useful when I'm trying to read over notes at the table. Learning how to shorten ideas down to a few key words that gets the point across will help a lot with translating my vision into reality.
I've been out of Prozac for a few days now; the end of the bottle caught me by surprise, so I put in a rush order at the pharmacy. It's ready, so I'll probably dip out after the program launch to pick it up and create the account for my mom's estate at long last. Once that's done, all I'll need is my brother's death certificate so we can move forward with the insurance claim. Then, the whole process of making her death 'official' will be over.
There's also the little matter of getting Adderall. I put in a request for that, too, but the prescription hasn't been filled yet. I'm not sure if my psychiatrist is sitting on the request or if the shortage is making it harder to get. Either way, it might be a good opportunity to practice focus techniques while I'm not medicated. I've got a few ADHD books on that and it'd be cool to test out. Then, when the prescription is filled again I'll be even MORE PRODUCTIVE MWAHAHAHAHA -- or I could even decide that I don't need the Adderall after all. I doubt that, but it's a possibility.
It's only 16 days until Christmas and I've done absolutely nothing for it, which is sadly on-brand for me. I've been writing Christmas prep down as a Bullet Journal goal for days now, but between work and writing and everything else there never seems to be time for it. I think I'll really drill down into it this weekend, get a gifts list going and finalize things with Ryan. It's...probably too late for cards this year, I'm very sad to say. When I move into next year's Bullet Journal, I'll add Christmas prep deadlines to my year-at-a-glance spread so hopefully that will help.
When I open my meditation app each morning, there's a quote of the day. Today's really struck me: "What is our purpose in life, but to make it easier for others?" That feels like a great guiding principle. Life is hard. Inherently. One of the best things we can do is lift the burden from others where we can.
