Why Rane Is Awesome
Jun. 5th, 2008 11:21 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Time: 30 minutes
Distance: 2.77 miles
Top Speed: 6.2 mph
Calories: 288
Yesterday I came in from work in a state.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
toob asked me if I was going to run, and I told him I had no time because I needed to shore up the D+D game and that would take all the time I could manage and still get to bed at a reasonable hour. He responded by talking me down from near-hyperventilation, giving me a backrub, going out to run *with* me and telling me to stay away from the computer and read instead.
So I had a glass of wine and started Watership Down, then played a few rounds of Peggle. I feel *so* much better, it's like night and day.
It's amazing to have someone who knows how you operate enough to step in and save you from yourself. I'm so grateful for him. :D
Best part? I've had a revelation about my Dungeons and Dragons game. I've been pretty controlling about the story and how it's supposed to go, and effectively creating an environment that limits the players and how their characters react to things. "No, you're supposed to be heroes!" I think most of the trouble begins there, where I'm too focused on telling the story in a certain way to let it go naturally, to let people follow what they find to be most interesting. I can take steps to correct that now.
The same thing extends to all aspects of my life. I've been more and more afraid to just let things go; there's this unspoken mistrust about everything around me (especially at work) that makes me think nothing will be done right if I'm not influencing it heavily. It's a pretty fucking arrogant way to think. I really should stop that.
If any of you catch me trying to be some kind of (insert label here) -zilla about something, would you kindly smack me down? Much appreciated. :)
Distance: 2.77 miles
Top Speed: 6.2 mph
Calories: 288
Yesterday I came in from work in a state.
toob asked me if I was going to run, and I told him I had no time because I needed to shore up the D+D game and that would take all the time I could manage and still get to bed at a reasonable hour. He responded by talking me down from near-hyperventilation, giving me a backrub, going out to run *with* me and telling me to stay away from the computer and read instead.So I had a glass of wine and started Watership Down, then played a few rounds of Peggle. I feel *so* much better, it's like night and day.
It's amazing to have someone who knows how you operate enough to step in and save you from yourself. I'm so grateful for him. :D
Best part? I've had a revelation about my Dungeons and Dragons game. I've been pretty controlling about the story and how it's supposed to go, and effectively creating an environment that limits the players and how their characters react to things. "No, you're supposed to be heroes!" I think most of the trouble begins there, where I'm too focused on telling the story in a certain way to let it go naturally, to let people follow what they find to be most interesting. I can take steps to correct that now.
The same thing extends to all aspects of my life. I've been more and more afraid to just let things go; there's this unspoken mistrust about everything around me (especially at work) that makes me think nothing will be done right if I'm not influencing it heavily. It's a pretty fucking arrogant way to think. I really should stop that.
If any of you catch me trying to be some kind of (insert label here) -zilla about something, would you kindly smack me down? Much appreciated. :)
