A Long December
Sep. 30th, 2001 10:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Hey there, all...
It's been a long strange weekend, for the most part. After spending most of Saturday in a relatively pissy mood, my Sunday was mostly OK. I think a much needed visit with Lazarus and an absolutely sinful raspberry cocoa/Triple Sec/hot chocolate mix (dubbed "The Blackout") set me right off.
I spazzed to Lazarus Rat for a bit about all of my frustrations with being on-line at the moment, and he did his best to soothe them...though I think I ended up annoying him a bit once things were resolved. Despite feeling close to him, I can't really seem to shake off that bit of nervousness that allows me to do something with him. I don't know why I freeze whenever I get what it is I think I'm looking for. Maybe I'm just doomed to sabotaging all of my relationships. :) It'd make for an interesting life *after* I'm done with it, but right now it's just annoying. ;)
Had a pretty boffo game today; one of the players went through Chrysalis (yay!) and hopefully the other players will develop their characters a bit better so we can start getting them to progress. I'm liking how the story is developing, but two of the players don't seem to invest much into their characters, so they're being listless and random, and not much they do makes sense. Hopefully they'll shape up, or I'll stop taking this all so seriously. :)
Missing a few people around tonight, while being annoyed by most of the rest. :/ I wish I weren't so anti-social these days...but the problem will just get worse until I grow a backbone and tell people to go away. It's about time I joined the vertebrate species.
In the meantime, I'm at a crossroads; it's time for me to start taking things a little bit more seriously, while not worrying about them nearly as much. Growing up? No, just growing wiser, I suppose. I hope it'll help my writing, at least.
That's all for now!
It's been a long strange weekend, for the most part. After spending most of Saturday in a relatively pissy mood, my Sunday was mostly OK. I think a much needed visit with Lazarus and an absolutely sinful raspberry cocoa/Triple Sec/hot chocolate mix (dubbed "The Blackout") set me right off.
I spazzed to Lazarus Rat for a bit about all of my frustrations with being on-line at the moment, and he did his best to soothe them...though I think I ended up annoying him a bit once things were resolved. Despite feeling close to him, I can't really seem to shake off that bit of nervousness that allows me to do something with him. I don't know why I freeze whenever I get what it is I think I'm looking for. Maybe I'm just doomed to sabotaging all of my relationships. :) It'd make for an interesting life *after* I'm done with it, but right now it's just annoying. ;)
Had a pretty boffo game today; one of the players went through Chrysalis (yay!) and hopefully the other players will develop their characters a bit better so we can start getting them to progress. I'm liking how the story is developing, but two of the players don't seem to invest much into their characters, so they're being listless and random, and not much they do makes sense. Hopefully they'll shape up, or I'll stop taking this all so seriously. :)
Missing a few people around tonight, while being annoyed by most of the rest. :/ I wish I weren't so anti-social these days...but the problem will just get worse until I grow a backbone and tell people to go away. It's about time I joined the vertebrate species.
In the meantime, I'm at a crossroads; it's time for me to start taking things a little bit more seriously, while not worrying about them nearly as much. Growing up? No, just growing wiser, I suppose. I hope it'll help my writing, at least.
That's all for now!
