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Has anyone heard of a band called Lemon Jelly? They're really good, and weird. A lot of people might have heard of them, perhaps, from the "all the ducks are swimming in the water" thing. Anyway, I'm really digging them. I wonder if anyone in the apartment has a CD I can nick and listen to.
While burning CDs my computer has decided to crap out on a massive scale. Half the time one or two CD drives just...disappear into nullspace, and when they do show up the RealPlayer (yes, yes, I *know*, first mistake already) burning utility won't recognize certain songs. RP has this really messed up way of dealing with songs; you have to get it to grok all the songs on your computer and put it into its own personal library file system thing. But it won't take *everything*, no; that would be too simple. So you have to hunt down little patches or some obscure, unknown file that makes it recognize certain file formats (I have a few songs that are encoded in .ogg format because that's the way Eliahn likes them), and I can guarantee you, it won't be successful.
Anyway, trying to make a simple mixed CD turned into a Category 5 nightmare last night, which was rather annoying. I'll try different burning software as soon as folks make a recommendation (and they almost invariably will), but my main concern is my suddenly flaky computer. I haven't had a hitch before this, so I'm a bit worried. We had a really weird blackout a few nights back that might have done something to make the drives off. I'll talk to Delphi about it when I can.
A few observations: I'm noticing a slow and steady shift to this really...Southern outlook on things. The more I read Molly Ivins, the more I really just want to be her friend. She seems to have this really intelligent but laid-back attitude about our current political state, and she makes a great case for what she believes without being vitrolic about it. She can disagree with folks like Ann Coulter and (maybe) have a certain level of propriety about her. I have yet to get to her level of eloquence, but she's someone that's influencing me a lot right now.
Online still seems to be...problematic for me. There are a lot of people I just don't...click with, no matter how much I would like to. I think it's just because they're looking for something (honestly, I don't know what, which should tell you how flawed this line of thinking is from the set) that it's not really in me to give. I have yet to display what I find interesting in an engaging manner, perhaps. I've come a long way with being comfortable with myself, but I'm really not much more comfortable with the rest of the world.
Instinct tells me to retreat, but I don't know if that's such a great idea. I mean, it feels *natural* to me to just have a handful of friends I would do anything for, no matter how many people I want to hang out with. I mean, I'm content with a lot of folks, for the most part. I just don't think I'm compatible with a lot of what's commonly desired. Not sure exactly what this means.
I'm not very good at being a smoldering sexpot. I don't show off bulging muscle in any conventional way. ;) I don't have a showboaty attitude, I can't be aloof enough to appear above it all; I do want people to like me, think I'm interesting, etc., but at this point I'm not really willing to go and say, suddenly turn into a dripping hermaphrodite and jiggle breasts around to do it. (No offense to any and all persons who play hermaphrodites on-line.) It's just not in me any more to put a whole lot of effort in pretending to be someone who I'm not to gain approval. So, as such, I'm cool with a whole host of people, but not anything special enough to really...seek out or be attractive. I'm comfortable, but not passionate. Boots that you've had for ages against a really kick-ass new pair. And well, most people like new boots. :)
Brahma made this post about his disillusionment of certain circles of furry due to the sometimes overwhelming focus on evil. I started to raise up arms in agreement, and then I stopped to think about it. Is it really that evil gets more attention because it's evil? I don't think so; there are a lot of non-evil folks I've seen in places who gather interest just fine. I think it has more to do with how interesting and/or attractive you are. Some folks just have a sort of online presence that makes them instantly noticeable. They just know how to work a room. Also, I really think being female helps.
Anyway, I'm more-or-less comfortable with who I am, even though there's stuff I'd like to work on. Obsessive personality, unreasoned bias for or against a thing or two. Even if this means boring the heck out of people I admire, I guess that's just part of the territory.
Tried letter-writing last night, but it got derailed by the whole CD burning fiasco. Oh! And I ran again last night. I wasn't gonna because my legs were sore, but Delphinios came over and invited me out. And who am I to say no? It's worth it watching a computer geek cough up his lungs. (Believe me, I wasn't much better.) We sat and wheezed on the front porch for about 30 minutes before we went to our respective domeciles. Today, my legs are pretty sore but not too bad. I'm expecting to be in hell by Thursday (won't I be surprised if that never happens).
I feel very good these days. After climbing out of the jumble of sickness and depression, things just seem better, if only because I'm finally starting to do the things I've known I should for some time. Which reminds me, I should really get kicking on the whole college thing.
While burning CDs my computer has decided to crap out on a massive scale. Half the time one or two CD drives just...disappear into nullspace, and when they do show up the RealPlayer (yes, yes, I *know*, first mistake already) burning utility won't recognize certain songs. RP has this really messed up way of dealing with songs; you have to get it to grok all the songs on your computer and put it into its own personal library file system thing. But it won't take *everything*, no; that would be too simple. So you have to hunt down little patches or some obscure, unknown file that makes it recognize certain file formats (I have a few songs that are encoded in .ogg format because that's the way Eliahn likes them), and I can guarantee you, it won't be successful.
Anyway, trying to make a simple mixed CD turned into a Category 5 nightmare last night, which was rather annoying. I'll try different burning software as soon as folks make a recommendation (and they almost invariably will), but my main concern is my suddenly flaky computer. I haven't had a hitch before this, so I'm a bit worried. We had a really weird blackout a few nights back that might have done something to make the drives off. I'll talk to Delphi about it when I can.
A few observations: I'm noticing a slow and steady shift to this really...Southern outlook on things. The more I read Molly Ivins, the more I really just want to be her friend. She seems to have this really intelligent but laid-back attitude about our current political state, and she makes a great case for what she believes without being vitrolic about it. She can disagree with folks like Ann Coulter and (maybe) have a certain level of propriety about her. I have yet to get to her level of eloquence, but she's someone that's influencing me a lot right now.
Online still seems to be...problematic for me. There are a lot of people I just don't...click with, no matter how much I would like to. I think it's just because they're looking for something (honestly, I don't know what, which should tell you how flawed this line of thinking is from the set) that it's not really in me to give. I have yet to display what I find interesting in an engaging manner, perhaps. I've come a long way with being comfortable with myself, but I'm really not much more comfortable with the rest of the world.
Instinct tells me to retreat, but I don't know if that's such a great idea. I mean, it feels *natural* to me to just have a handful of friends I would do anything for, no matter how many people I want to hang out with. I mean, I'm content with a lot of folks, for the most part. I just don't think I'm compatible with a lot of what's commonly desired. Not sure exactly what this means.
I'm not very good at being a smoldering sexpot. I don't show off bulging muscle in any conventional way. ;) I don't have a showboaty attitude, I can't be aloof enough to appear above it all; I do want people to like me, think I'm interesting, etc., but at this point I'm not really willing to go and say, suddenly turn into a dripping hermaphrodite and jiggle breasts around to do it. (No offense to any and all persons who play hermaphrodites on-line.) It's just not in me any more to put a whole lot of effort in pretending to be someone who I'm not to gain approval. So, as such, I'm cool with a whole host of people, but not anything special enough to really...seek out or be attractive. I'm comfortable, but not passionate. Boots that you've had for ages against a really kick-ass new pair. And well, most people like new boots. :)
Brahma made this post about his disillusionment of certain circles of furry due to the sometimes overwhelming focus on evil. I started to raise up arms in agreement, and then I stopped to think about it. Is it really that evil gets more attention because it's evil? I don't think so; there are a lot of non-evil folks I've seen in places who gather interest just fine. I think it has more to do with how interesting and/or attractive you are. Some folks just have a sort of online presence that makes them instantly noticeable. They just know how to work a room. Also, I really think being female helps.
Anyway, I'm more-or-less comfortable with who I am, even though there's stuff I'd like to work on. Obsessive personality, unreasoned bias for or against a thing or two. Even if this means boring the heck out of people I admire, I guess that's just part of the territory.
Tried letter-writing last night, but it got derailed by the whole CD burning fiasco. Oh! And I ran again last night. I wasn't gonna because my legs were sore, but Delphinios came over and invited me out. And who am I to say no? It's worth it watching a computer geek cough up his lungs. (Believe me, I wasn't much better.) We sat and wheezed on the front porch for about 30 minutes before we went to our respective domeciles. Today, my legs are pretty sore but not too bad. I'm expecting to be in hell by Thursday (won't I be surprised if that never happens).
I feel very good these days. After climbing out of the jumble of sickness and depression, things just seem better, if only because I'm finally starting to do the things I've known I should for some time. Which reminds me, I should really get kicking on the whole college thing.
