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Aug. 6th, 2003
Does Paranoia Come With Age?
Aug. 6th, 2003 10:08 am
Hey there, all...
So having completely fulfilled my whiskey requirement today (with no hangover!), I think I'll save the pipe for after work. 12-year-old Glenlivet rocks. :)
Had the opportunity to run into a bunch of people who all make me nervous individually congregating together on-line today. It was an opportunity to look all smooth or something, or at least say hi and just watch. And what do I do? I bolted. Just got this horrible feeling like I walked in on a board meeting or something, like "Oh my God, I'm not supposed to be here!!" And I just had to *leave*. I'm shaking, even. What the hell is that about? I'm more than slightly worried about that.
Hurrah for neuroses! I got weird after too *much* alcohol earlier this morning, and maybe it's carrying over.
This is all part of a general trend. But I won't explain it too much, or bitch about it even. But there *is* a very strong difference between doesn't and can't.
Work in a few hours! Before that, there's answering e-mail I've been neglecting for a good little while. And before *that*, a little bit of tea to calm my nerves.
So having completely fulfilled my whiskey requirement today (with no hangover!), I think I'll save the pipe for after work. 12-year-old Glenlivet rocks. :)
Had the opportunity to run into a bunch of people who all make me nervous individually congregating together on-line today. It was an opportunity to look all smooth or something, or at least say hi and just watch. And what do I do? I bolted. Just got this horrible feeling like I walked in on a board meeting or something, like "Oh my God, I'm not supposed to be here!!" And I just had to *leave*. I'm shaking, even. What the hell is that about? I'm more than slightly worried about that.
Hurrah for neuroses! I got weird after too *much* alcohol earlier this morning, and maybe it's carrying over.
This is all part of a general trend. But I won't explain it too much, or bitch about it even. But there *is* a very strong difference between doesn't and can't.
Work in a few hours! Before that, there's answering e-mail I've been neglecting for a good little while. And before *that*, a little bit of tea to calm my nerves.
Hey there, all...
Thank you very much for the well-wishes. :) I really appreciate them. There seems to be a lot of people who've added me as a friend for some reason, too. So, erm, thanks a lot people. I'm afraid I don't know who you all are, but welcome. I wish I could keep track of new additions. <:/ So, tea and the main theme from "Twin Peaks" is a good, good calming combination. I don't know why I don't own that show yet (probably because it's, you know, $200 for VHS and the DVD only has the first season), but one day, I vow to get it! I've been kind of feening for good television these days. If I ever get the money, I think I'm going to have to get the first season of "Six Feet Under" so I can see, you know, beyond the first two episodes. :) I can rent "The Sopranos" to see what all the fuss is about. And I've been *really* wanting to take a stroll through "Twin Peaks" again. David Lynch, for better and worse, is a really big influence. I'm up to three or four regular comics these days. "New X-Men," "Uncanny X-Men," "Fables," and "Green Arrow." I'm thinking about picking up "Superman: Metropolis," too...it's got this whole urban legends of the future thing going on that I really dig. I love the way DC seems to be shaping itself into a heavily mythological universe. It's tres cool. :) Meanwhile, "Salvation" keeps being rewritten. Milo has undergone many changes, and I'm never quite sure what angle works best for him. Since he's the main charater, the way the world is going to be presented is heavily skewed by his views and opinions, and I want there to be a nice balance between 'angst' and a good sense of optimism. I really don't want it to be too syrupy, but at the same time I don't like to be needlessly kvetchy. ;) The more I rewrite him, though, the more Milo is becoming a springboard for my weirdest thoughts and conventions. He's a lot more...eccentric than I first imagined him, and I'm not sure if that's a good way to present the comic's world. I like his personality just fine, but it severely affects the way the story is told. <:) I think I'm just going to bite the bullet and produce the first two months of comic, then see how it takes. I'll take a month to rewrite it if necessary, and then pick up with the second storyline. I'm starting to get a bit more involved with Boomer Express. Watching Tyrnn work has kind of mellowed me out a bit, and I think I have a better handle on his rhythm, and how he likes to present the comic. I might try to go ahead and write the second story all the way through and present it to him in one big chunk. I think we're both agreed on the idea of having *much* shorter, easier-to-swallow stories from now on. <:) I'm sorry that the first story turned people off so much; in a lot of ways, I'm responsible. It's going to be...interesting trying to get people in on the comic now that it's improving. I think the trick to not feeling guilty about slacking is to make sure that what you're doing at any given moment is the best thing you could possibly be doing. That takes practice, you know. ;) So, off to enjoy the day.
Thank you very much for the well-wishes. :) I really appreciate them. There seems to be a lot of people who've added me as a friend for some reason, too. So, erm, thanks a lot people. I'm afraid I don't know who you all are, but welcome. I wish I could keep track of new additions. <:/ So, tea and the main theme from "Twin Peaks" is a good, good calming combination. I don't know why I don't own that show yet (probably because it's, you know, $200 for VHS and the DVD only has the first season), but one day, I vow to get it! I've been kind of feening for good television these days. If I ever get the money, I think I'm going to have to get the first season of "Six Feet Under" so I can see, you know, beyond the first two episodes. :) I can rent "The Sopranos" to see what all the fuss is about. And I've been *really* wanting to take a stroll through "Twin Peaks" again. David Lynch, for better and worse, is a really big influence. I'm up to three or four regular comics these days. "New X-Men," "Uncanny X-Men," "Fables," and "Green Arrow." I'm thinking about picking up "Superman: Metropolis," too...it's got this whole urban legends of the future thing going on that I really dig. I love the way DC seems to be shaping itself into a heavily mythological universe. It's tres cool. :) Meanwhile, "Salvation" keeps being rewritten. Milo has undergone many changes, and I'm never quite sure what angle works best for him. Since he's the main charater, the way the world is going to be presented is heavily skewed by his views and opinions, and I want there to be a nice balance between 'angst' and a good sense of optimism. I really don't want it to be too syrupy, but at the same time I don't like to be needlessly kvetchy. ;) The more I rewrite him, though, the more Milo is becoming a springboard for my weirdest thoughts and conventions. He's a lot more...eccentric than I first imagined him, and I'm not sure if that's a good way to present the comic's world. I like his personality just fine, but it severely affects the way the story is told. <:) I think I'm just going to bite the bullet and produce the first two months of comic, then see how it takes. I'll take a month to rewrite it if necessary, and then pick up with the second storyline. I'm starting to get a bit more involved with Boomer Express. Watching Tyrnn work has kind of mellowed me out a bit, and I think I have a better handle on his rhythm, and how he likes to present the comic. I might try to go ahead and write the second story all the way through and present it to him in one big chunk. I think we're both agreed on the idea of having *much* shorter, easier-to-swallow stories from now on. <:) I'm sorry that the first story turned people off so much; in a lot of ways, I'm responsible. It's going to be...interesting trying to get people in on the comic now that it's improving. I think the trick to not feeling guilty about slacking is to make sure that what you're doing at any given moment is the best thing you could possibly be doing. That takes practice, you know. ;) So, off to enjoy the day.
Bits In Amber
Aug. 6th, 2003 01:40 pm
Hey there, all...
This will *likely* be the last update today. Sorry for being so...talkative. ;)
Anywho, a lot of things happened today, and one of them was without a doubt one of the most horrific things to ever happen in human history. The stories of terror, devastation, survival and horrific circumstances are just...incredible. Without question, this has to be the most affecting part of history for me. Even now, I'm horrified by the remote possiblity anything like this could ever happen again.
This and this were nicked from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
soappuppy, and millerwolf has a link of his own. I found this to be pretty nice, and here's another thing.
Have a good day, folks.
This will *likely* be the last update today. Sorry for being so...talkative. ;)
Anywho, a lot of things happened today, and one of them was without a doubt one of the most horrific things to ever happen in human history. The stories of terror, devastation, survival and horrific circumstances are just...incredible. Without question, this has to be the most affecting part of history for me. Even now, I'm horrified by the remote possiblity anything like this could ever happen again.
This and this were nicked from
soappuppy, and millerwolf has a link of his own. I found this to be pretty nice, and here's another thing.Have a good day, folks.