Bliss

( Another test. )

I've been compared to Willem Dafoe. I can die a happy fag. :)

Sent off what I have so far of "Love In War" to Malin and the folks at Sofawolf Press, along with a brief synopsis of the rest of the story. The more I think about it, the more comfortable I am with the idea of turning it into a novel...but I'll wait for Malin's response to see what comes of it. I'm just happy that whatever block had been dogging me for years is gone, and I'm actually producing something again. :)

The writing itself isn't very good (very rough draft), but I do love the story, and I think it has potential. If I can just get it together enough to it justice I'll be happy. :)

Today, I go back into work after taking yesterday off to write and edit Love In War. I got a bit done, but not nearly as much as I should have. Still, when you're used to a life full of slack, any form of productivity is a wondrous, new jewel. ;)

Jeannie is...getting worse. I don't want to say much more than that, but I hope Bernadette lasts longer than she does, and we find another replacement. I get to head out after work with Bernadette, Katy and hopefully Heidi for a bit of chat and fellowship, so that's good. :)

All in all, life is grand, even if I'm not going to AnthroCon.

Say What?

So, out of nowhere, I'm just...blind-sided by this railing from some guy I thought I was cool with. I'm not sure where this came from, but...ugh.

Nothing's clear-cut. I'm not the best person in the world, but I definitely try my best to be respectful of people. Sex = guilt. I really enjoy sex while I'm doing it on-line, but it almost always makes me feel guilty afterwards. Very few people I'm comfortable with enough to do that sort of thing, and now...

I was talking to the former Mystic Leopard last night, and he talked about what he discovered on his month hiatus from the Internet. I've been growing more and more disconnected from the furry community and friends within it that...I don't know. There are so many wonderful people here, but I've been hurt so many times. I try to be optimistic, I try to learn from my mistakes, I try to keep everything in perspective...it's really hard when you're dealing with people so far off, to keep your center. There's so much vitrol here sometimes. And as much as I try, I don't know where it all comes from, why it exists.