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jakebe
So, out of nowhere, I'm just...blind-sided by this railing from some guy I thought I was cool with. I'm not sure where this came from, but...ugh.
Nothing's clear-cut. I'm not the best person in the world, but I definitely try my best to be respectful of people. Sex = guilt. I really enjoy sex while I'm doing it on-line, but it almost always makes me feel guilty afterwards. Very few people I'm comfortable with enough to do that sort of thing, and now...
I was talking to the former Mystic Leopard last night, and he talked about what he discovered on his month hiatus from the Internet. I've been growing more and more disconnected from the furry community and friends within it that...I don't know. There are so many wonderful people here, but I've been hurt so many times. I try to be optimistic, I try to learn from my mistakes, I try to keep everything in perspective...it's really hard when you're dealing with people so far off, to keep your center. There's so much vitrol here sometimes. And as much as I try, I don't know where it all comes from, why it exists.
Nothing's clear-cut. I'm not the best person in the world, but I definitely try my best to be respectful of people. Sex = guilt. I really enjoy sex while I'm doing it on-line, but it almost always makes me feel guilty afterwards. Very few people I'm comfortable with enough to do that sort of thing, and now...
I was talking to the former Mystic Leopard last night, and he talked about what he discovered on his month hiatus from the Internet. I've been growing more and more disconnected from the furry community and friends within it that...I don't know. There are so many wonderful people here, but I've been hurt so many times. I try to be optimistic, I try to learn from my mistakes, I try to keep everything in perspective...it's really hard when you're dealing with people so far off, to keep your center. There's so much vitrol here sometimes. And as much as I try, I don't know where it all comes from, why it exists.
