Heel

Hey there, all...

I'm sorry to everyone I've been an unappreciative bastard to. I really wish I could tell folks how much they mean to me, how much it hurts that I'm distant from everyone and how badly I wish I could just get close to someone...anyone. Sometimes I get so lonely I could vomit.

I hate depression with just about every fiber of my being. I keep feeling like a burned puzzle piece, irrevocably warped so that I will never, ever fit in anywhere no matter how hard I try. I know there's a place for me somewhere, I *know* this, but even if I found it (have I already?), would I recognize it? At this point, I really don't know if I would.

I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of thinking. I feel like an egotistical git. What the fuck is wrong with me?

I'm tired of thinking.

Thanks to lazarusrat and Eliahn for being there when I just need company. You two are the best, and you mean an awful lot to me.