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The Night Is Full Of Embarrassment
Jan. 29th, 2002 05:22 am
Hey there...
Well, I think I've calmed down out of my little depressive streak earlier last week, and looking back on the things I wrote, I have to say I'm a little bit embarrassed by what I said.
I've been diagnosed by a college therapist as being chronic-depressive, which pretty much means that I have a tendency to be...well, depressed. I thought I understood that, and was cool with it. I thought I could handle when I had depressive episodes, especially since I knew what to look for. You know, since I'm expecting it and all, you should know what's coming and prepare accordingly. I knew what was coming, but I tried to ignore it, stave it off, what have you...I didn't prepare.
So, my apologies to folks reading my LiveJournal on a regular basis (especially Danruk, Joshuwain, Blackfeather, Wendell, and anyone else who responded and I didn't quite get back to), mainly for being a big goober-poopy-head and not doing what was *right*, which was seeking solitude and shelter until the storm passed over. Your patience will be wholeheartedly remembered. :)
In other news, I really, *REALLY* hate it when someone swears up and down they're your friend, even close friends, and they do absolutely *nothing* but contradict that claim. Even when you *call* them on it, and give them a chance to be honest, they *still* insist on bullshitting you, even though you *both* know the truth.
Man, karma sucks. :P
My work schedule's changed this week, and I think I like this one a whole lot better. I'm only working one 2nd shift this week, and the other 4 days are 3rd (graveyard) shifts. Less people to deal with, more time to write and read, less management breathing down my neck...all in all it's a pretty sweet and cushy job.
I've reached a sort of Zen state at my job for the moment. You know, it's really easy actually to just be nice to people, despite them giving you crap. You just kind of brush it off and keep going. I mean, honestly, now that I'm seeing with a clear head, these people aren't *worth* getting angry over. They ultimately, and maybe this is a callous way of saying it, aren't important to me or what I do. Do I want to make them happy? Sure. But they have to want to *be* happy...and they don't come into EZ Mart to be happy. They come in for cigarettes. :P
Anyway, on to bigger and better things...I really have quite a bit to do, and I should be doing them. I just need to get up off my fat ass and do them. ;) I've got storyline to write for The Nameless...I think I *finally* have a clear vision of the metaplot, so the games should *hopefully* run a lot smoother once that vision becomes crystal. I've also thought up an idea for a Net campaign I'd love for folks to be in (my pics: Blackfeather, Sylvan/Joshuwain, Pawslut and Zirien), so I'll be sending information to the appropriate groups about my intentions for both games.
I've begun shopping around for artists for the Beak comic-idea. They're not really much more than a couple stabs in the dark, but hey, they're something.
I really, *Really* need to finish "The Way Things Are" so I can get started on the next submissions for New Tibet and Historimorphs.
What am I doing just...sitting here? Blah! ;)
Well, I think I've calmed down out of my little depressive streak earlier last week, and looking back on the things I wrote, I have to say I'm a little bit embarrassed by what I said.
I've been diagnosed by a college therapist as being chronic-depressive, which pretty much means that I have a tendency to be...well, depressed. I thought I understood that, and was cool with it. I thought I could handle when I had depressive episodes, especially since I knew what to look for. You know, since I'm expecting it and all, you should know what's coming and prepare accordingly. I knew what was coming, but I tried to ignore it, stave it off, what have you...I didn't prepare.
So, my apologies to folks reading my LiveJournal on a regular basis (especially Danruk, Joshuwain, Blackfeather, Wendell, and anyone else who responded and I didn't quite get back to), mainly for being a big goober-poopy-head and not doing what was *right*, which was seeking solitude and shelter until the storm passed over. Your patience will be wholeheartedly remembered. :)
In other news, I really, *REALLY* hate it when someone swears up and down they're your friend, even close friends, and they do absolutely *nothing* but contradict that claim. Even when you *call* them on it, and give them a chance to be honest, they *still* insist on bullshitting you, even though you *both* know the truth.
Man, karma sucks. :P
My work schedule's changed this week, and I think I like this one a whole lot better. I'm only working one 2nd shift this week, and the other 4 days are 3rd (graveyard) shifts. Less people to deal with, more time to write and read, less management breathing down my neck...all in all it's a pretty sweet and cushy job.
I've reached a sort of Zen state at my job for the moment. You know, it's really easy actually to just be nice to people, despite them giving you crap. You just kind of brush it off and keep going. I mean, honestly, now that I'm seeing with a clear head, these people aren't *worth* getting angry over. They ultimately, and maybe this is a callous way of saying it, aren't important to me or what I do. Do I want to make them happy? Sure. But they have to want to *be* happy...and they don't come into EZ Mart to be happy. They come in for cigarettes. :P
Anyway, on to bigger and better things...I really have quite a bit to do, and I should be doing them. I just need to get up off my fat ass and do them. ;) I've got storyline to write for The Nameless...I think I *finally* have a clear vision of the metaplot, so the games should *hopefully* run a lot smoother once that vision becomes crystal. I've also thought up an idea for a Net campaign I'd love for folks to be in (my pics: Blackfeather, Sylvan/Joshuwain, Pawslut and Zirien), so I'll be sending information to the appropriate groups about my intentions for both games.
I've begun shopping around for artists for the Beak comic-idea. They're not really much more than a couple stabs in the dark, but hey, they're something.
I really, *Really* need to finish "The Way Things Are" so I can get started on the next submissions for New Tibet and Historimorphs.
What am I doing just...sitting here? Blah! ;)
