Mr. Asshat, That's Me!
Feb. 9th, 2004 10:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
Asshat is such a great insult, even when you're being self-deprecating about it. "I'm an asshat, yes that's me!"
There have been a lot of things rubbing me the wrong way lately; something that could just as easily be accepted and dealt with, but I'd just as soon bitch about it. I was thinking about making a good, long post to get it off my chest, but then I stopped and thought about it, and more than likely I'd just end up putting my big fat foot in my thick-lipped mouth. While I do like paws, this is a less than ideal situation.
What usually gives me pause when I'm about to go on a tear with something is the fact that I often exhibit the same behavior, onlysignificantly slightly different enough so that it's not the same thing. "God, people who hate small talk really piss me off. Get over it!" "Well, you're not exactly Conversation Master yourself over there." "Oh yeah, you're right. Never mind."
I'm very uncomfortable with righteous indignation because I'm very seldom righteous. I think I pay attention to my flaws quite a bit, and while I've grown comfortable with my imperfections, it's often rendered me powerless to complain about injustice, real or perceived, in my life. So, while it'd be good to get these things off my chest once in a while, I'm a lot more likely to sulk about it and not talk to people for a while. Which can be just as damaging, if not more so.
This weekend was pretty cool. I did absolutely, positively nothing for two whole days, especially Sunday, which was blissfully slothful. Odis' game was...memorable. I'll have to summary it sometime tomorrow, likely, but I will say that I never knew I had such a capacity for vengeance. I'm also going to have to think about a change in my character's mindset a bit more, which is always intriguing. But more on that later.
I've been in a largely good mood, even though I've been feeling really solitary. I'm not sure *why*, but I'd rather read or write something than talk lots. Of course, the sheer power of habit will see to me being on-line anyway.
There's a lot more I wanted to say, about introversion and meditation and further exploration of asshatosity, but I should probably do the whole work thing instead.
There have been a lot of things rubbing me the wrong way lately; something that could just as easily be accepted and dealt with, but I'd just as soon bitch about it. I was thinking about making a good, long post to get it off my chest, but then I stopped and thought about it, and more than likely I'd just end up putting my big fat foot in my thick-lipped mouth. While I do like paws, this is a less than ideal situation.
What usually gives me pause when I'm about to go on a tear with something is the fact that I often exhibit the same behavior, only
I'm very uncomfortable with righteous indignation because I'm very seldom righteous. I think I pay attention to my flaws quite a bit, and while I've grown comfortable with my imperfections, it's often rendered me powerless to complain about injustice, real or perceived, in my life. So, while it'd be good to get these things off my chest once in a while, I'm a lot more likely to sulk about it and not talk to people for a while. Which can be just as damaging, if not more so.
This weekend was pretty cool. I did absolutely, positively nothing for two whole days, especially Sunday, which was blissfully slothful. Odis' game was...memorable. I'll have to summary it sometime tomorrow, likely, but I will say that I never knew I had such a capacity for vengeance. I'm also going to have to think about a change in my character's mindset a bit more, which is always intriguing. But more on that later.
I've been in a largely good mood, even though I've been feeling really solitary. I'm not sure *why*, but I'd rather read or write something than talk lots. Of course, the sheer power of habit will see to me being on-line anyway.
There's a lot more I wanted to say, about introversion and meditation and further exploration of asshatosity, but I should probably do the whole work thing instead.
