"What are you gonna do about me?"
Dec. 12th, 2003 12:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
So, this was a pretty big downer to start the day with. There's the normal sadness that the game is ending, but it's compounded with the very shoddy treatment it's received from White Wolf ever since the Year of the Reckoning. One of these days, when I get it together enough, I'd love to rewrite the game completely, take it out of the gothic-punk context of the WoD, and make it something a bit less dependent on WW politics and comparisons to other, much more blatantly powered games.
It's very silly to say that a role-playing game has the capacity of changing your life so much, but it did. Without Changeling, I wouldn't have been lead to a lot of the beliefs I hold now, about art and its place in society, about imagination, about spirituality. It's been remarkably influential for me, mainly as a springboard to delve into the issues of life that are very important to me. Changeling: the Dreaming is gaming at its best, a modern-day version of the legends and stories we used to sing in village squares, or tell to children before bedtime, or whisper to each other around campfires. It's the continuation of the classic storytelling tradition. It saddens me quite a bit to see it going out (officially, anyway; there are still hordes of fan-sites, gaming groups, message boards, etc. that will keep the Dream in motion for a long time to come) with such a whimper.
That being said, today looks relatively relaxed. I'm going to be in a bit of trouble when I head in to work today, but I'm well-rested and ready for all the books I'm going to have to put up. Hopefully, I won't get half of the books that we put out on a daily basis, and I have a smaller load to deal with. Work until close, whereupon I'll be whisked away to dinner (and possibly a movie) by Odis. Hopefully I can get to WalMart, too; we're going to be snowed on quite a bit Friday night/Saturday morning, which means lots of games, movies, whiskey and general hanging out. Unfortunately, I have to fill in for Matt on Sunday, which means I have to get someone to give me a ride. :/
Working the Bookshop on Sundays rocks. :) There's nothing but you, books and a steady trickly of customers. It's very calm, laidback, easy...even the work you do (pricing books) isn't nearly as stressful as the rest of the week. I'd rather work Sundays, honestly, than any other day, but I think Charles would rather someone else do it because he fears I'll be lazy. ;) Still, getting Friday and Saturday off would own. :)
Much writing needs to be done! I think I've about given up on Mustsy for now, even though I'm probably going to go ahead and write the short story I had planned for cycle 3 anyways. I still need to edit the stories i wrote for the last two cycles, but that comes later. Boomer Express, "Grey Warming Over," and holiday stories I'm giving as (belated) gifts this year take precedence. I'll be working on all three of them at work tonight and Sunday.
One realization I've come to this week is how much my behavior is ruled by my desire, which is decidedly a bad thing. One of the reason I feel so guilty about having little on-line brouhahas with people is because I desire it so much, and because I do I worry if my desire is overriding my consideration for other people. This is a pretty legitimate worry, because it happens sometimes. I think the ratio of what I can take from people to what I can give to people is a bit high for my liking, so this is something I'm going to work on. The fact that I can recognize flaws and work on them critically is probably the best thing to happen to me this year.
Cleared up some issue I was having with a friend; hopefully things will go a bit smoother now.
It's very silly to say that a role-playing game has the capacity of changing your life so much, but it did. Without Changeling, I wouldn't have been lead to a lot of the beliefs I hold now, about art and its place in society, about imagination, about spirituality. It's been remarkably influential for me, mainly as a springboard to delve into the issues of life that are very important to me. Changeling: the Dreaming is gaming at its best, a modern-day version of the legends and stories we used to sing in village squares, or tell to children before bedtime, or whisper to each other around campfires. It's the continuation of the classic storytelling tradition. It saddens me quite a bit to see it going out (officially, anyway; there are still hordes of fan-sites, gaming groups, message boards, etc. that will keep the Dream in motion for a long time to come) with such a whimper.
That being said, today looks relatively relaxed. I'm going to be in a bit of trouble when I head in to work today, but I'm well-rested and ready for all the books I'm going to have to put up. Hopefully, I won't get half of the books that we put out on a daily basis, and I have a smaller load to deal with. Work until close, whereupon I'll be whisked away to dinner (and possibly a movie) by Odis. Hopefully I can get to WalMart, too; we're going to be snowed on quite a bit Friday night/Saturday morning, which means lots of games, movies, whiskey and general hanging out. Unfortunately, I have to fill in for Matt on Sunday, which means I have to get someone to give me a ride. :/
Working the Bookshop on Sundays rocks. :) There's nothing but you, books and a steady trickly of customers. It's very calm, laidback, easy...even the work you do (pricing books) isn't nearly as stressful as the rest of the week. I'd rather work Sundays, honestly, than any other day, but I think Charles would rather someone else do it because he fears I'll be lazy. ;) Still, getting Friday and Saturday off would own. :)
Much writing needs to be done! I think I've about given up on Mustsy for now, even though I'm probably going to go ahead and write the short story I had planned for cycle 3 anyways. I still need to edit the stories i wrote for the last two cycles, but that comes later. Boomer Express, "Grey Warming Over," and holiday stories I'm giving as (belated) gifts this year take precedence. I'll be working on all three of them at work tonight and Sunday.
One realization I've come to this week is how much my behavior is ruled by my desire, which is decidedly a bad thing. One of the reason I feel so guilty about having little on-line brouhahas with people is because I desire it so much, and because I do I worry if my desire is overriding my consideration for other people. This is a pretty legitimate worry, because it happens sometimes. I think the ratio of what I can take from people to what I can give to people is a bit high for my liking, so this is something I'm going to work on. The fact that I can recognize flaws and work on them critically is probably the best thing to happen to me this year.
Cleared up some issue I was having with a friend; hopefully things will go a bit smoother now.
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So, <a href="http://www.geocities.com/blackhatmatt/changeling_end.htm">this</a> was a pretty big downer to start the day with. There's the normal sadness that the game is ending, but it's compounded with the very shoddy treatment it's received from White Wolf ever since the Year of the Reckoning. One of these days, when I get it together enough, I'd love to rewrite the game completely, take it out of the gothic-punk context of the WoD, and make it something a bit less dependent on WW politics and comparisons to other, much more blatantly powered games.
It's very silly to say that a role-playing game has the capacity of changing your life so much, but it did. Without Changeling, I wouldn't have been lead to a lot of the beliefs I hold now, about art and its place in society, about imagination, about spirituality. It's been remarkably influential for me, mainly as a springboard to delve into the issues of life that are very important to me. Changeling: the Dreaming is gaming at its best, a modern-day version of the legends and stories we used to sing in village squares, or tell to children before bedtime, or whisper to each other around campfires. It's the continuation of the classic storytelling tradition. It saddens me quite a bit to see it going out (officially, anyway; there are still hordes of fan-sites, gaming groups, message boards, etc. that will keep the Dream in motion for a long time to come) with such a whimper.
That being said, today looks relatively relaxed. I'm going to be in a bit of trouble when I head in to work today, but I'm well-rested and ready for all the books I'm going to have to put up. Hopefully, I won't get half of the books that we put out on a daily basis, and I have a smaller load to deal with. Work until close, whereupon I'll be whisked away to dinner (and possibly a movie) by Odis. Hopefully I can get to WalMart, too; we're going to be snowed on quite a bit Friday night/Saturday morning, which means lots of games, movies, whiskey and general hanging out. Unfortunately, I have to fill in for Matt on Sunday, which means I have to get someone to give me a ride. :/
Working the Bookshop on Sundays rocks. :) There's nothing but you, books and a steady trickly of customers. It's very calm, laidback, easy...even the work you do (pricing books) isn't nearly as stressful as the rest of the week. I'd rather work Sundays, honestly, than any other day, but I think Charles would rather someone else do it because he fears I'll be lazy. ;) Still, getting Friday and Saturday off would own. :)
Much writing needs to be done! I think I've about given up on Mustsy for now, even though I'm probably going to go ahead and write the short story I had planned for cycle 3 anyways. I still need to edit the stories i wrote for the last two cycles, but that comes later. Boomer Express, "Grey Warming Over," and holiday stories I'm giving as (belated) gifts this year take precedence. I'll be working on all three of them at work tonight and Sunday.
One realization I've come to this week is how much my behavior is ruled by my desire, which is decidedly a bad thing. One of the reason I feel so guilty about having little on-line brouhahas with people is because I desire it so much, and because I do I worry if my desire is overriding my consideration for other people. This is a pretty legitimate worry, because it happens sometimes. I think the ratio of what I can take from people to what I can give to people is a bit high for my liking, so this is something I'm going to work on. The fact that I can recognize flaws and work on them critically is probably the best thing to happen to me this year.
Cleared up some issue I was having with a friend; hopefully things will go a bit smoother now. <:)
Thinking about compiling a list of New Year's Resolutions, even though I'll probably depress myself by looking at last year's list. ;D Is anyone going to be resolving to (not) do anything this year?
And now, Friday Fiveness:
<b><i>Do you enjoy the cold weather and snow for the holidays?</i></b>
Are you kidding? Snow and cold weather for the holidays is like popcorn for movies. In order to have the full experience, this must be present. :) In Baltimore *and* Fayetteville, we don't have an awful lot of white Christmasses, so the years when the stars align right make them that mush more memorable.
<b><i>What is your ideal holiday celebration? How, where, with whom would you celebrate to make things perfect?</i></b>
My favorite holidays have always been the ones that aren't big productions. You know, a simple (maybe not so simple would be a betetr term) dinner with a few close friends, talking, movies, general merriment and then content sleep late on into the night. Gift-giving is small and discreet, because there's an unspoken understanding that we're all relatively poor. ;) So the local furs here tend to give gifts that probably aren't very expensive, but mean a lot, or that are uniquely made. The way we celebrate now is pretty close to my ideal, or at least it has been.
<b><i>Do you have any holiday traditions?</i></b>
Not yet...I just started celebrating the holidays four or five years ago. <:)
<b><i>Do you do anything to help the needy?</i></b>
I donate to the little ringing bell Santas sometimes, but that's more out of sympathy for them than a desire to help the Salvation Army. They can get pretty rough treatment out there sometimes and it makes me feel better showing them a bit of support.
<b><i>What one gift would you like for yourself?</i></b>
Hmm, honestly, gift certificates to book and music stores. :) I want books and CDs more than anything but I'd rather not go, "I want this." to someone. Oh wait, that wasn't the right answer: peace on Earth, good will towards men. And a giant rabbit.
My paid LJ account expires in ten days. Eeep. <:) I'll be paying for another year next Friday.
Time to make the doughnuts.
It's very silly to say that a role-playing game has the capacity of changing your life so much, but it did. Without Changeling, I wouldn't have been lead to a lot of the beliefs I hold now, about art and its place in society, about imagination, about spirituality. It's been remarkably influential for me, mainly as a springboard to delve into the issues of life that are very important to me. Changeling: the Dreaming is gaming at its best, a modern-day version of the legends and stories we used to sing in village squares, or tell to children before bedtime, or whisper to each other around campfires. It's the continuation of the classic storytelling tradition. It saddens me quite a bit to see it going out (officially, anyway; there are still hordes of fan-sites, gaming groups, message boards, etc. that will keep the Dream in motion for a long time to come) with such a whimper.
That being said, today looks relatively relaxed. I'm going to be in a bit of trouble when I head in to work today, but I'm well-rested and ready for all the books I'm going to have to put up. Hopefully, I won't get half of the books that we put out on a daily basis, and I have a smaller load to deal with. Work until close, whereupon I'll be whisked away to dinner (and possibly a movie) by Odis. Hopefully I can get to WalMart, too; we're going to be snowed on quite a bit Friday night/Saturday morning, which means lots of games, movies, whiskey and general hanging out. Unfortunately, I have to fill in for Matt on Sunday, which means I have to get someone to give me a ride. :/
Working the Bookshop on Sundays rocks. :) There's nothing but you, books and a steady trickly of customers. It's very calm, laidback, easy...even the work you do (pricing books) isn't nearly as stressful as the rest of the week. I'd rather work Sundays, honestly, than any other day, but I think Charles would rather someone else do it because he fears I'll be lazy. ;) Still, getting Friday and Saturday off would own. :)
Much writing needs to be done! I think I've about given up on Mustsy for now, even though I'm probably going to go ahead and write the short story I had planned for cycle 3 anyways. I still need to edit the stories i wrote for the last two cycles, but that comes later. Boomer Express, "Grey Warming Over," and holiday stories I'm giving as (belated) gifts this year take precedence. I'll be working on all three of them at work tonight and Sunday.
One realization I've come to this week is how much my behavior is ruled by my desire, which is decidedly a bad thing. One of the reason I feel so guilty about having little on-line brouhahas with people is because I desire it so much, and because I do I worry if my desire is overriding my consideration for other people. This is a pretty legitimate worry, because it happens sometimes. I think the ratio of what I can take from people to what I can give to people is a bit high for my liking, so this is something I'm going to work on. The fact that I can recognize flaws and work on them critically is probably the best thing to happen to me this year.
Cleared up some issue I was having with a friend; hopefully things will go a bit smoother now. <:)
Thinking about compiling a list of New Year's Resolutions, even though I'll probably depress myself by looking at last year's list. ;D Is anyone going to be resolving to (not) do anything this year?
And now, Friday Fiveness:
<b><i>Do you enjoy the cold weather and snow for the holidays?</i></b>
Are you kidding? Snow and cold weather for the holidays is like popcorn for movies. In order to have the full experience, this must be present. :) In Baltimore *and* Fayetteville, we don't have an awful lot of white Christmasses, so the years when the stars align right make them that mush more memorable.
<b><i>What is your ideal holiday celebration? How, where, with whom would you celebrate to make things perfect?</i></b>
My favorite holidays have always been the ones that aren't big productions. You know, a simple (maybe not so simple would be a betetr term) dinner with a few close friends, talking, movies, general merriment and then content sleep late on into the night. Gift-giving is small and discreet, because there's an unspoken understanding that we're all relatively poor. ;) So the local furs here tend to give gifts that probably aren't very expensive, but mean a lot, or that are uniquely made. The way we celebrate now is pretty close to my ideal, or at least it has been.
<b><i>Do you have any holiday traditions?</i></b>
Not yet...I just started celebrating the holidays four or five years ago. <:)
<b><i>Do you do anything to help the needy?</i></b>
I donate to the little ringing bell Santas sometimes, but that's more out of sympathy for them than a desire to help the Salvation Army. They can get pretty rough treatment out there sometimes and it makes me feel better showing them a bit of support.
<b><i>What one gift would you like for yourself?</i></b>
Hmm, honestly, gift certificates to book and music stores. :) I want books and CDs more than anything but I'd rather not go, "I want this." to someone. Oh wait, that wasn't the right answer: peace on Earth, good will towards men. And a giant rabbit.
My paid LJ account expires in ten days. Eeep. <:) I'll be paying for another year next Friday.
Time to make the doughnuts.
