Flipgriddle

Hey there, all...

Bernadette just walked in and gave me a little slice of apple. Combined with the wedge of orange I had yesterday, that makes two whole pieces of fruit in the past two days! I had forgotten how good they taste. <:) I think I might start investing into fresh fruits and veggies a wee bit more. The powedered veggies they put on Big Macs at McDonald's don't quite cut it any more. Hmm, just a thought, but is anyone else significantly affected by the seasons? I've noticed a trend myself (besides getting ragingly sexual in the spring) towards a change in diet and energy. In winter, I'm a lot more...contemplative, laid-back and quiet. I also tend to eat a *lot* of sweets. Cinnamon buns become a staple. :) In summer, I get more into salads and what-not, and I love being...out. Not just outside, but much more in the company of others. If you sit down and think about it, it makes sense, but I think the differences are worth noting. Tomorrow is pay day! I need to do something to celebrate. ;) Most of the money is going to paying back debts and getting things for the car, but I'm going to try and work on saving up a little bit from each paycheck for an emergency and/or travel fund. It's just a good idea. I am *going* to play mini-golf this weekend, too, so help me! I'm still a little thin-skinned on-line, so I'm going to be a bit flighty and weird, I think. I'll probably back off for a little while, there's a lot of stuff to do anyway. I'm going to try and get Mustsy off the ground this weekend, and it wouldn't hurt to be a few weeks ahead on Boomer Express, either. I think I'm getting better with the dialogue, and now that Tyrnn and I have a bit of understanding about things hopefully it'll only get better still. I'm not promising anything wonderful, though...not until we get this storyline finished. <:)

Sudden Unexplainable Angst Chance for Self-Exploration

Hey there, all...

Two-person conversation: A great, wonderful, fresh exchange of ideas, a chance to bond with another person.

Three-person conversation: A situation where someone is always left feeling left out and slightly aloof; a chance to compare all the things that one person does with another to all the things you *don't* do with said person. A good excuse for alienation.

Looks like there's a green-eyed monkey riding my back. :P

I don't know what it is with social mixing that completely drains any sense of confidence and self-worth I could possibly had. Even in *good* group conversations, I always feel like this left-out castaway. What kind of mental process causes that switch to flip, whether it's actually happening (sometimes it is) or not? What causes that kind of social anxiety?

It's getting to be a big problem these days.