Plucking A Green Eye

The closer AC gets, the more plans that are made, the more I find out how everyone knows everyone else, and will be hanging out with each other before and after the con...the harder it is to get a handle on my jealousy.

Why do I want so freaking much? Isn't it going to be enough just to be in the company of these people for two or three days? Why do I have to be everyone's best friend?

I *HATE* myself sometimes.