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Hey there all...
Just got back from a pretty awesome weekend. :) Went to the HGP, hung out, talked to quite a few people, got drunk, pierced Delphi's eyeball with the talon on my biggest finger-toe. :P I got to hang out with Blackfeather, too, though for some reason we didn't talk as much as I really wanted to. I guess I was just shy for some reason; I didn't want to come across as too headstrong or opinionated. I was content to just...be with him for a while.
I got to talk to a few people and get to know them a bit better. Tempesta, Halex, Quasi and BenSkunk all were really great company. Thanks to all of you, and TC and Spike for the great campout!
Halex has been pretty thoughtful as of late about his spiritual path, which surprised me. Besides from gently reminding folks he's Christian every time someone (usually me) makes a crack about them, we've never really talked much about it. When we actually sat down and had a serious discussion about it, though, I learned quite a bit about his recent development...and how I operate as well. I also gave him a tarot reading that turned out pretty well. I've heard quite a few negative things about Crow's Magick tarot, but we've gotten along spectacularly. :)
Delphi and I have been talking a lot this week about varying things, and the more we talk the more I really like him. He's one of the few people that share my random, twisted, and generally mostly unfunny sense of humour, and he's exceedingly intelligent without being condescending in conversation. I think it's this trait I admire most about him; we can agree on things, disagree on things, but no matter what I never feel like I'm thought of any less because we differ on opinions. We're equals and friends, and that really feels nice. I really dig travelling with him, because he makes those long stretches of drive a lot more pleasant. I think Odis, him and I should drive everywhere together!
Came home on Sunday night, and I suspected, mostly everything in the apartment was gone. However, surprisingly, Joey hadn't moved everything out. He said it was pretty hard to get help over the weekend and I believe it. For various reasons (a lot of them, legitimate), it's been really hard to get NARFA to rally around anything as of late. I guess people just aren't as interested in being a solid community any more.
Still, the apartment was empty enough to be really depressing. The worst thing about is I can't even start cleaning and moving things around because Joey's not completely gone yet. So I just have to sit there and watch the place slowly empty out. It feels like I'm breaking up with him all over again in a lot of ways. There's just that feeling of nostalgia...
Anyway, I'm going to focus on getting the food shelves and fridge straight, tossing things out I don't quite need or have been there long enough, or stuff I know I'll never ever eat. I'm going to try and eat in as much as possible over the next few weeks; I have to save up for AC now, as well as rent and bills, and a lot of stuff I want to get for my computer (hard drive, processor and external modem). Oh yes, and I need new shoes; the ones I have got so many holes in them...just another ghetto thing, I guess. :)
Despite being in a funk about it, I'm kind of excited about living on my own. It helps me figure out my own identity, you know...what I think of as really important. I don't have *anything* now, literally, besides books, CDs and my computer. Well, I have a futon and bookshelves, but that's about it. If I want something, I'm going to have to go out and get it myself. I have to prioritize. First three things on my list? An old-fashioned bell-ringy alarm clock, *some* kind of stereo (I can't *stand* quiet), and more books. ;)
I'm envisioning that all of my stuff is going to go into the bedroom; I know exactly how that's going to look. I want a low coffee table, too, so that people can sit comfortably on the floor and still use it. I'd like to put a chess board on it, maybe an incense burner as well. I want an altar up, too...it's about time I had one, and now I've got the space for it. Beyond that, I really don't know what I want...especially since we're moving out of this place in a few months any way.
In the meantime, my computer's going to be down for a little while as I'm moving things around. I'll be able to update LJ and check mail from work, but MUCK use'll be limited. Which is good, because I really should catch up on my writing!
I really wish I had time to talk to and be there for Sylvan, Puc and Potoroo. Not that I think they could truly benefit from my existence or anything, but I just...wish I could do more besides being so self-absorbed in what I'm doing.
Ah, well...once everything within is calmed a bit, maybe I can start actually helping other people.
Just got back from a pretty awesome weekend. :) Went to the HGP, hung out, talked to quite a few people, got drunk, pierced Delphi's eyeball with the talon on my biggest finger-toe. :P I got to hang out with Blackfeather, too, though for some reason we didn't talk as much as I really wanted to. I guess I was just shy for some reason; I didn't want to come across as too headstrong or opinionated. I was content to just...be with him for a while.
I got to talk to a few people and get to know them a bit better. Tempesta, Halex, Quasi and BenSkunk all were really great company. Thanks to all of you, and TC and Spike for the great campout!
Halex has been pretty thoughtful as of late about his spiritual path, which surprised me. Besides from gently reminding folks he's Christian every time someone (usually me) makes a crack about them, we've never really talked much about it. When we actually sat down and had a serious discussion about it, though, I learned quite a bit about his recent development...and how I operate as well. I also gave him a tarot reading that turned out pretty well. I've heard quite a few negative things about Crow's Magick tarot, but we've gotten along spectacularly. :)
Delphi and I have been talking a lot this week about varying things, and the more we talk the more I really like him. He's one of the few people that share my random, twisted, and generally mostly unfunny sense of humour, and he's exceedingly intelligent without being condescending in conversation. I think it's this trait I admire most about him; we can agree on things, disagree on things, but no matter what I never feel like I'm thought of any less because we differ on opinions. We're equals and friends, and that really feels nice. I really dig travelling with him, because he makes those long stretches of drive a lot more pleasant. I think Odis, him and I should drive everywhere together!
Came home on Sunday night, and I suspected, mostly everything in the apartment was gone. However, surprisingly, Joey hadn't moved everything out. He said it was pretty hard to get help over the weekend and I believe it. For various reasons (a lot of them, legitimate), it's been really hard to get NARFA to rally around anything as of late. I guess people just aren't as interested in being a solid community any more.
Still, the apartment was empty enough to be really depressing. The worst thing about is I can't even start cleaning and moving things around because Joey's not completely gone yet. So I just have to sit there and watch the place slowly empty out. It feels like I'm breaking up with him all over again in a lot of ways. There's just that feeling of nostalgia...
Anyway, I'm going to focus on getting the food shelves and fridge straight, tossing things out I don't quite need or have been there long enough, or stuff I know I'll never ever eat. I'm going to try and eat in as much as possible over the next few weeks; I have to save up for AC now, as well as rent and bills, and a lot of stuff I want to get for my computer (hard drive, processor and external modem). Oh yes, and I need new shoes; the ones I have got so many holes in them...just another ghetto thing, I guess. :)
Despite being in a funk about it, I'm kind of excited about living on my own. It helps me figure out my own identity, you know...what I think of as really important. I don't have *anything* now, literally, besides books, CDs and my computer. Well, I have a futon and bookshelves, but that's about it. If I want something, I'm going to have to go out and get it myself. I have to prioritize. First three things on my list? An old-fashioned bell-ringy alarm clock, *some* kind of stereo (I can't *stand* quiet), and more books. ;)
I'm envisioning that all of my stuff is going to go into the bedroom; I know exactly how that's going to look. I want a low coffee table, too, so that people can sit comfortably on the floor and still use it. I'd like to put a chess board on it, maybe an incense burner as well. I want an altar up, too...it's about time I had one, and now I've got the space for it. Beyond that, I really don't know what I want...especially since we're moving out of this place in a few months any way.
In the meantime, my computer's going to be down for a little while as I'm moving things around. I'll be able to update LJ and check mail from work, but MUCK use'll be limited. Which is good, because I really should catch up on my writing!
I really wish I had time to talk to and be there for Sylvan, Puc and Potoroo. Not that I think they could truly benefit from my existence or anything, but I just...wish I could do more besides being so self-absorbed in what I'm doing.
Ah, well...once everything within is calmed a bit, maybe I can start actually helping other people.
