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I Am Afroman, Pondering My Mac and Cheese
Jan. 17th, 2002 08:17 am
Hey there...
Things are well...all right, everything considered. I've seemed to have lost my wallet, so every few hours there's a little panic attack and I rip another area of the house apart trying to find it...nothing's come up yet. *sigh* I am *so* not looking forward to the prospect of replacing all of my ID...
I've kind of settled into this mental grey area since the whole revelation. I'm refinding my Joy again, though it's still a very teen-angst-but-glad-to-be-alive kind of thing. I don't know on Earth how I can possibly explain being content with melancholy, but, well, there you go.
The main thing nagging me these days is this vague sense of...inferiority. That's dangerous for me, especially, because it leads to all kinds of anger and jealousy that I'd rather not feel if I can help it. I'm not competing with anyone here, you know? And no one's going to laugh at me (except maybe Foxen) for what I do, so it's all good.
I read an interview with David Lynch and I got inspired again. Reading how he works just made me love the man even more; he was unfailingly polite, genial, offbeat and old-fashioned, but you know there's a deep, deep intellect lurking under there, like he's got some kind of connection to this big, cosmic truth. And he's laying it all out there for us to see, but he's not going to explain it, because what would be the point? That's not how yuo attain enlightenment.
I thought about working on a poem today, but decided not to. I just didn't feel like putting anything together. I just feel like sleeping. So...good night. :)
Things are well...all right, everything considered. I've seemed to have lost my wallet, so every few hours there's a little panic attack and I rip another area of the house apart trying to find it...nothing's come up yet. *sigh* I am *so* not looking forward to the prospect of replacing all of my ID...
I've kind of settled into this mental grey area since the whole revelation. I'm refinding my Joy again, though it's still a very teen-angst-but-glad-to-be-alive kind of thing. I don't know on Earth how I can possibly explain being content with melancholy, but, well, there you go.
The main thing nagging me these days is this vague sense of...inferiority. That's dangerous for me, especially, because it leads to all kinds of anger and jealousy that I'd rather not feel if I can help it. I'm not competing with anyone here, you know? And no one's going to laugh at me (except maybe Foxen) for what I do, so it's all good.
I read an interview with David Lynch and I got inspired again. Reading how he works just made me love the man even more; he was unfailingly polite, genial, offbeat and old-fashioned, but you know there's a deep, deep intellect lurking under there, like he's got some kind of connection to this big, cosmic truth. And he's laying it all out there for us to see, but he's not going to explain it, because what would be the point? That's not how yuo attain enlightenment.
I thought about working on a poem today, but decided not to. I just didn't feel like putting anything together. I just feel like sleeping. So...good night. :)
