Will Never Return
May. 27th, 2004 03:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jakebe
I've been in a slump all week that I've only now managed to pull out of. Work has continued to be a beast, with the computer *still* infected with spyware (I think I've removed most of it, but I'm still getting excessive pop-ups and weird browser behavior) and Charles chewing me out non-stop for the past three days about the way the Arkansas and Poetry section is kept. The worst part about this is I know I probably deserve most of it; with Erika gone and me taking up the slack for part of her sections, combined with the fact that I've honestly been pretty lazy about work last week, the section has gone to hell. BUT there is one qualifier to append to this, a big one:
When people come in to sell books (which they've been doing a lot of lately), Charles and Don use the aisle of Poetry and Arkansas to look through them. People bring in boxes and boxes of books that need to be sorted through, then boxed up for cleaning and pricing. Guess where those 'prep' boxes go? That's right, that same aisle. With *all* the traffic that we've been getting there, it's really hard to make sure everything's up to snuff. Add to that people really loving to browse those two sections, and there's almost never a good time to preen the books and make sure they look all right.
Even still, there are tons of books in the Arkansas section that should be brought from the back and shelved, and I'll be doing that this evening. Hopefully it won't take too long because I'd like to straighten Poetry as well. I can deal with the duplicates in both sections tomorrow. I'll also try and stay out of Charles' way tomorrow, just in case. Another drubbing won't do much for my wee fragile ego.
When people come in to sell books (which they've been doing a lot of lately), Charles and Don use the aisle of Poetry and Arkansas to look through them. People bring in boxes and boxes of books that need to be sorted through, then boxed up for cleaning and pricing. Guess where those 'prep' boxes go? That's right, that same aisle. With *all* the traffic that we've been getting there, it's really hard to make sure everything's up to snuff. Add to that people really loving to browse those two sections, and there's almost never a good time to preen the books and make sure they look all right.
Even still, there are tons of books in the Arkansas section that should be brought from the back and shelved, and I'll be doing that this evening. Hopefully it won't take too long because I'd like to straighten Poetry as well. I can deal with the duplicates in both sections tomorrow. I'll also try and stay out of Charles' way tomorrow, just in case. Another drubbing won't do much for my wee fragile ego.
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I've been in a slump all week that I've only now managed to pull out of. Work has continued to be a beast, with the computer *still* infected with spyware (I think I've removed most of it, but I'm still getting excessive pop-ups and weird browser behavior) and Charles chewing me out non-stop for the past three days about the way the Arkansas and Poetry section is kept. The worst part about this is I know I probably deserve most of it; with Erika gone and me taking up the slack for part of her sections, combined with the fact that I've honestly been pretty lazy about work last week, the section has gone to hell. BUT there is one qualifier to append to this, a big one:
When people come in to sell books (which they've been doing a lot of lately), Charles and Don use the aisle of Poetry and Arkansas to look through them. People bring in boxes and boxes of books that need to be sorted through, then boxed up for cleaning and pricing. Guess where those 'prep' boxes go? That's right, that same aisle. With *all* the traffic that we've been getting there, it's really hard to make sure everything's up to snuff. Add to that people really loving to browse those two sections, and there's almost never a good time to preen the books and make sure they look all right.
Even still, there are tons of books in the Arkansas section that should be brought from the back and shelved, and I'll be doing that this evening. Hopefully it won't take too long because I'd like to straighten Poetry as well. I can deal with the duplicates in both sections tomorrow. I'll also try and stay out of Charles' way tomorrow, just in case. Another drubbing won't do much for my wee fragile ego. <:)
In other news, I've been feeling extraordinarily guilty for a lot of things, namely the way I've treated a lot of friends. You know how it is when you get on a train of thought, then the breaks fail and you're rolling downhill at hundreds of miles an hour? Yeah, it's like that. Haven't really been able to shake that feeling, and I'm honestly too ashamed and nervous to even try to fix things or make sure they're OK. A lot of the mental exhaustion I've been enduring is just from me running around in circles over problems in my relationships, real or imagined. Blegh. Hurrah for faulty brains.
AnthroCon is still up in the air for me. To be honest, I really don't want to go right now...the expense is really high, and I have this odd feeling that most of my friends will be hanging with other people at functions that are invite-only and I, well, won't be invited to. There'll be a lot of aimless wandering. THEN I start beating myself up for thinking that way, because, you know, well...what should I expect? For all these people that I barely talk to on-line to welcome me into the fold with open arms? It's just not reasonable to expect that. Besides, it's rather pessimistic thinking besides.
There's also the fact that Tyrnn is expecting me to pay for part of the room, Prismo kind of needs me to go if he's driving, and (as far as I know) I'm scheduled to give a stand-up routine at some point. It would make people's lives harder if I didn't go, from a purely monetary/schedule standpoint. I have no doubt that SueDeer could (will) find a replacement if I let her know now, but that's extra stuff she especially doesn't need right now. :P
Complicating things further is the consideration of Sylvan's Pride Party at the end of June. If I dropped out of AC now, I could go there instead and have a pretty good time, but if I went to AC I wouldn't be able to make that. And the period of waffling is about over; I need to make a decision very soon.
I'm leaning towards Sylvan, but I don't know. AC will probably turn out better than I imagine it would; I tend to get my post-con depression months in advance. :P I'm sure if I went in there just aiming for a good time I'd manage it, with or without people I wanted to hang with. Eh, we'll see. I'll sleep on it a few nights more.
The Changeling game went well last night; we wrapped up (nearly) the first story. The climax went really well, though the characters (and players) are still kind of in the dark about what's really going down. I plan on pretty much giving an in-character Q and A session to tie up loose ends and then plan on writing the next story...we'll have two more people coming in next game, so it'll probably be a short little thing to start including them in the fold and to set up the world better. There's also all the repercussions from this last story that needs to be addressed.
I'm working on "Salvation" again, at Eliahn's <s>flogging</s> urging. Currently writing an essay about exactly why I'm doing this and where I plan to go with it, then I'll start writing character profiles, then comic scripts and finally I'll try my hand at drawing the strips themselves. The last time I drew I got about four or five strips in before I stopped; buildings proved to be my downfall. Also, I can't draw Milo from behind to save my life. :P
The first part of "Grey Warming Over" is pretty much done, save for minor revisions that'll be done by tomorrow. I'm going to jump right into the second part this weekend, hopefully, and get it done early so Spiritwolf won't have to hunt me down and threaten me with...creepy, horrible invisotricks to get my ass in gear. :P
So...yeah, I guess that's what I've been up to. Oh yes, and writing poetry. It's all frumpy love stuff, you probably don't want to see it. :P
When people come in to sell books (which they've been doing a lot of lately), Charles and Don use the aisle of Poetry and Arkansas to look through them. People bring in boxes and boxes of books that need to be sorted through, then boxed up for cleaning and pricing. Guess where those 'prep' boxes go? That's right, that same aisle. With *all* the traffic that we've been getting there, it's really hard to make sure everything's up to snuff. Add to that people really loving to browse those two sections, and there's almost never a good time to preen the books and make sure they look all right.
Even still, there are tons of books in the Arkansas section that should be brought from the back and shelved, and I'll be doing that this evening. Hopefully it won't take too long because I'd like to straighten Poetry as well. I can deal with the duplicates in both sections tomorrow. I'll also try and stay out of Charles' way tomorrow, just in case. Another drubbing won't do much for my wee fragile ego. <:)
In other news, I've been feeling extraordinarily guilty for a lot of things, namely the way I've treated a lot of friends. You know how it is when you get on a train of thought, then the breaks fail and you're rolling downhill at hundreds of miles an hour? Yeah, it's like that. Haven't really been able to shake that feeling, and I'm honestly too ashamed and nervous to even try to fix things or make sure they're OK. A lot of the mental exhaustion I've been enduring is just from me running around in circles over problems in my relationships, real or imagined. Blegh. Hurrah for faulty brains.
AnthroCon is still up in the air for me. To be honest, I really don't want to go right now...the expense is really high, and I have this odd feeling that most of my friends will be hanging with other people at functions that are invite-only and I, well, won't be invited to. There'll be a lot of aimless wandering. THEN I start beating myself up for thinking that way, because, you know, well...what should I expect? For all these people that I barely talk to on-line to welcome me into the fold with open arms? It's just not reasonable to expect that. Besides, it's rather pessimistic thinking besides.
There's also the fact that Tyrnn is expecting me to pay for part of the room, Prismo kind of needs me to go if he's driving, and (as far as I know) I'm scheduled to give a stand-up routine at some point. It would make people's lives harder if I didn't go, from a purely monetary/schedule standpoint. I have no doubt that SueDeer could (will) find a replacement if I let her know now, but that's extra stuff she especially doesn't need right now. :P
Complicating things further is the consideration of Sylvan's Pride Party at the end of June. If I dropped out of AC now, I could go there instead and have a pretty good time, but if I went to AC I wouldn't be able to make that. And the period of waffling is about over; I need to make a decision very soon.
I'm leaning towards Sylvan, but I don't know. AC will probably turn out better than I imagine it would; I tend to get my post-con depression months in advance. :P I'm sure if I went in there just aiming for a good time I'd manage it, with or without people I wanted to hang with. Eh, we'll see. I'll sleep on it a few nights more.
The Changeling game went well last night; we wrapped up (nearly) the first story. The climax went really well, though the characters (and players) are still kind of in the dark about what's really going down. I plan on pretty much giving an in-character Q and A session to tie up loose ends and then plan on writing the next story...we'll have two more people coming in next game, so it'll probably be a short little thing to start including them in the fold and to set up the world better. There's also all the repercussions from this last story that needs to be addressed.
I'm working on "Salvation" again, at Eliahn's <s>flogging</s> urging. Currently writing an essay about exactly why I'm doing this and where I plan to go with it, then I'll start writing character profiles, then comic scripts and finally I'll try my hand at drawing the strips themselves. The last time I drew I got about four or five strips in before I stopped; buildings proved to be my downfall. Also, I can't draw Milo from behind to save my life. :P
The first part of "Grey Warming Over" is pretty much done, save for minor revisions that'll be done by tomorrow. I'm going to jump right into the second part this weekend, hopefully, and get it done early so Spiritwolf won't have to hunt me down and threaten me with...creepy, horrible invisotricks to get my ass in gear. :P
So...yeah, I guess that's what I've been up to. Oh yes, and writing poetry. It's all frumpy love stuff, you probably don't want to see it. :P
