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A Prepared Statement
Hey there, all...
Sorry for giving the wrong impression. I'll still be skulking around on LiveJournal (I consider this more my diary than being on-line, I suppose), but I'll be cutting back on MUCK and IRC time quite a bit. There are a lot of reasons for this.
Like I've mentioned before, I almost always fight this feeling of disconnection, of alienation with people. The stronger this feeling gets, the more...warped my view of things become. I develop an incredibly thin skin and just about everything is taken personally. So, this feeling has been pretty bad for a good little bit now.
I start to expect things I really shouldn't expect from people. I cling to this idea that I should be treated differently than I am, when I'm pretty sure there are all sorts of reasons for my situation. There really aren't any easy answers, and sometimes you just have to accept the way things are as the way things are. I'm not really...having an easy time with accepting that, though.
I've got short stories to write, comics to plan, books to read, all kinds of things to do, but I spend almost every night getting more and more frustrated on a MUCK or IRC channel. It just makes sense to step back and focus on something else.
One day, I'll have a more balanced view of being on-line. I'm just not happy with a lot of things right now, and it's useless butting heads with it, so setting it aside and coming back from a different perspective might help.
Thanks for all the well-wishes.
Sorry for giving the wrong impression. I'll still be skulking around on LiveJournal (I consider this more my diary than being on-line, I suppose), but I'll be cutting back on MUCK and IRC time quite a bit. There are a lot of reasons for this.
Like I've mentioned before, I almost always fight this feeling of disconnection, of alienation with people. The stronger this feeling gets, the more...warped my view of things become. I develop an incredibly thin skin and just about everything is taken personally. So, this feeling has been pretty bad for a good little bit now.
I start to expect things I really shouldn't expect from people. I cling to this idea that I should be treated differently than I am, when I'm pretty sure there are all sorts of reasons for my situation. There really aren't any easy answers, and sometimes you just have to accept the way things are as the way things are. I'm not really...having an easy time with accepting that, though.
I've got short stories to write, comics to plan, books to read, all kinds of things to do, but I spend almost every night getting more and more frustrated on a MUCK or IRC channel. It just makes sense to step back and focus on something else.
One day, I'll have a more balanced view of being on-line. I'm just not happy with a lot of things right now, and it's useless butting heads with it, so setting it aside and coming back from a different perspective might help.
Thanks for all the well-wishes.