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The Pair
I had a pair of dreams last night that I thought I should write down, because they're interesting to me.
In the first, one of my players for my upcoming D+D game mismatched one of the colored folders and memo pads I got for him to keep track of his character sheets and notes and whatnot. I remember this giving me a fit of annoyance, and made me all kinds of passive-aggressive and snide. Apparently I dream about living up to my inner priss.
The other dream was me visiting![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
belly4you at some kind of closed-down WalMart super-center. When we met I tried to brush a bit of dander from her eyebrow and she pulled away quick. "Don't touch me!" I snapped at her in a passive-aggressive way, and she apologized awkwardly, and the rest of the visit went more or less OK.
I think this tells me a bit about my apprehension over the way I deal with interpersonal stress. I usually try to hide annoyance, anger or hurt but it's always going to find a way out somehow. I just hate confrontation so much that it's better to try and brush off something rather than let it out onto the table and try to work through it. So, most of the time, my dissatisfaction with a situation is expressed through mixed signals, distance and creating a blind spot around the problem.
Also, I'm slightly worried about my impending trip to Arkansas. I'm really excited about seeing the NARFA crew, but I haven't done the greatest job of keeping in touch. I'm sorry about that, but that's just...how I am. I wonder if there might be some kind of hurt feelings going on with that. Crystal, I'm especially sorry to you. You rock and you should know that. I still consider you one of my closest friends. :)
Less than a week to go until I'm back in Fayetteville and the surrounding parts, and I'm massively excited. :) I have to get my costume in order, and all of my ducks in a row. (Speaking of which, does anyone know where I can find a ninja outfit on the quick around the Bay area?) I should start calling around to get a good sense of when I'll be doing what with whom. :)
Other than that, life goes on; I'm ramping up for a Dungeons and Dragons game that'll start as soon as I'm back home. That's a post for a whole different time. It'll be a long one...or several long ones for that matter. For now, work.
In the first, one of my players for my upcoming D+D game mismatched one of the colored folders and memo pads I got for him to keep track of his character sheets and notes and whatnot. I remember this giving me a fit of annoyance, and made me all kinds of passive-aggressive and snide. Apparently I dream about living up to my inner priss.
The other dream was me visiting
belly4you at some kind of closed-down WalMart super-center. When we met I tried to brush a bit of dander from her eyebrow and she pulled away quick. "Don't touch me!" I snapped at her in a passive-aggressive way, and she apologized awkwardly, and the rest of the visit went more or less OK.I think this tells me a bit about my apprehension over the way I deal with interpersonal stress. I usually try to hide annoyance, anger or hurt but it's always going to find a way out somehow. I just hate confrontation so much that it's better to try and brush off something rather than let it out onto the table and try to work through it. So, most of the time, my dissatisfaction with a situation is expressed through mixed signals, distance and creating a blind spot around the problem.
Also, I'm slightly worried about my impending trip to Arkansas. I'm really excited about seeing the NARFA crew, but I haven't done the greatest job of keeping in touch. I'm sorry about that, but that's just...how I am. I wonder if there might be some kind of hurt feelings going on with that. Crystal, I'm especially sorry to you. You rock and you should know that. I still consider you one of my closest friends. :)
Less than a week to go until I'm back in Fayetteville and the surrounding parts, and I'm massively excited. :) I have to get my costume in order, and all of my ducks in a row. (Speaking of which, does anyone know where I can find a ninja outfit on the quick around the Bay area?) I should start calling around to get a good sense of when I'll be doing what with whom. :)
Other than that, life goes on; I'm ramping up for a Dungeons and Dragons game that'll start as soon as I'm back home. That's a post for a whole different time. It'll be a long one...or several long ones for that matter. For now, work.