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[livejournal.com profile] mut answered an interview meme some time ago, and I thought I'd partake in it since the opportunity arose. Who doesn't love answering questions about themselves at length? I'm not sure these are the official rules, but here they are according to our favorite British physicist:

1. If you would like me to ask you questions, ask unambiguously in comments.
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. Update your LJ with the answers to the questions, plus a similar offer.

And now, the questions!

1) Most important question first: What is your favourite kind of tea?

Hah. Good question! I could say something terrible like all tea tastes the same to me, and I'm generally good with a bag of Lipton. But I don't think you would fall for such blatant trickery

Though I'm worried that my real answer might not be much better. I'm a really big fan of herbal teas, so Celestial Seasonings is something I'd rock more often than not. I love the Honey Vanilla Chamomile, the Madagascar Vanilla Red, and the good old Tension Tamer. Oooh, but if you do a really good lemon ginger tea (and there's a company called Yogi Tea that does), nothing really tops that. I'll have to go with that. Lemon ginger.

2) Who (or what) are the biggest influences on your writing?

My list is constantly changing. When I was a kid, I adored the stuff from C.S. Lewis and The Wind in the Willows. I had such a hard-on for talking animals in Victorian clothing, and my sensibilities are still pretty heavily wired that way. It's what got me in to Alan Dean Foster and (indirectly) the furry fandom to begin with.

The kinds of stories I tell generally have to do with people who are trying their hardest to make sense of a chaotic world, who are doing what's best for them even if it screws the world around them. I'm a *huge* fan of small-town dynamics, because it's so fun to thread interpersonal relationships through to a grander, societal tapestry. David Lynch's Twin Peaks was the first thing I saw that really nailed that to me, and so many of my ideas have been trying to capture that.

Stylistically, I try for the clean, sharp and careful prose that most modern novelists have (ZZ Packer, Peter Orlean) but I think I come off more careless -- like Steven King, only more rambly, less interesting.

Poetry-wise, Charles Rafferty, Billy Collins and Tony Hoagland are my biggest influences. I love poetry that's challenging yet accessible, compassionate with just the right hint of snark.

3) Have you considered adopting a child with Ryan? What are your feelings?

I was adopted, so absolutely I'd like to return the favor with one child. I feel like I have quite a lot of growing up to do before that happens, though. I'm nowhere near fiscally or emotionally responsible enough to have a child. It's so *easy* to get it wrong with parenting, and I'd want to be sure that I was doing more good than harm with raising someone. Having the experience that I did growing up, and hearing about so many horror stories from other people, it's not something I would ever want to take lightly.

Beyond that, raising a child takes some serious cash. With the economic and political climate so strongly unfavorable to gay couples, it might take a little while before we're anywhere near a position where we could do that.

Short answer? Absolutely. But there's a lot of things that would need to fall into place before it could happen.

4) Apart from the Bay Area, where would you most like to live?

This might sound weird, but I have a particular fondness for the Pacific Northwest. I'd love to live in Washington state, which is cheaper than the Bay area (what isn't?) and has actually, honest-to-goodness *seasons*. There's a lot of stuff you could get away with up there (like relatively cheap housing, owning land, doing off-the-grid green energy stuff) that's a lot more difficult to pull off here.

And if I couldn't live there? Australia, definitely. Though I hear that comes with its own bag of problems.

5) A [non-malevolent] genie grants you three wishes. What is your third wish?

I love the phrasing of this question! I wish I had enough land and money to take care of myself, my family and friends for the rest of our lives. I'm pretty sure you can guess the first two!

Anyone else care to play this game? I'll ask you five questions, but only if you ask nicely.
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[livejournal.com profile] andreal gave me five words to write about, and here they are!

Cut to spare the friends list. )


Jun. 30th, 2009 09:50 am
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[livejournal.com profile] pyat had this meme stolen from him, in the friendliest of ways. It's made the rounds before, but it tends to come back every once in a while. Which I don't mind, because it's a neat one.

Anyway, the idea is to respond to this post with "Words!", and I'll give you five words that remind me of you. You then comment on them in a paragraph or two in your own journal. Fun, eh? Well, here are my five:

My relationship with rabbits is a little hard to describe. Being in the fandom means you have a pretty close association with at least one animal, and rabbits are it for me. It's hard to explain how deep that connection goes, but it feels so right that I can't really imagine 'being' anything else. There's nothing about them that I don't find fascinating (yes, even the really gross parts), and the mythology that's been built around them is equally wonderful. Not only because it helps frame a path of self-improvement, but also because it says a lot about what we as people tend to admire and emulate. The rabbit as mythological symbol shows us that we can actually laugh in the face of adversity, to be cliche about it, and that it's not impossible to use our environment to our advantage and still be a part of it. At least, that's what rabbit means to me. Among many other things.

For five years I worked in two used bookshops: the Dickson Street Bookshop in Fayetteville, AR and Bookbuyers, Inc. in Mountain View, CA. Both were wonderful jobs in their own way, and completely hellish in others. I've noticed that bookshop owners tend to be packrats of the worst sort, and while they're really awesome people who have a genuine love for their books and the communities they serve, they're also kind of crappy businessmen. Despite their shortcomings, I miss both places dearly, and if the situation was different then I'd jump right back into the used bookstore business in a heartbeat. As it is, I'll have to content myself with the occasional jaunt through my old stomping grounds when I can manage it. :)

A recent trip to Kansas City showed me just how much I've fit myself in to the California lifestyle. I understand now why Californians have the reputation we do; we're seen as snobs and fitness freaks, hippies and latte-drinking jackasses. And to be honest, at least on the coast, we kind of are. ;) What's great about Silicon Valley, though, is that the culture is designed for everyone to seek out and enjoy excellence in any endeavor they choose. For all of our shortcomings and eccentricities, we really do just want to be better people and try to make the world a better place. In this little bubble of the world, it's easy to forget how things are elsewhere -- that what works here doesn't work everywhere else, and that sometimes our big ideas just won't meet the practical realities of the world around us. This place isn't perfect by a long shot, but I love the spirit out here.

I've known Tube for going on eight or nine years now, even though we've only been married for less than a year. It was an extremely long courtship. :) I feel incredibly lucky to have found The One so early on in life; it means I have such a long and happy marriage to look forward to. :) He's been there for me through the absolute worst, and we help each other with everything we need. It's hard to imagine someone who could be more supportive and loving. The best part is building up such a strange set of in-jokes with him. :D

I started running a little while ago as an effort to get more into shape. I don't particularly mind my body, but...I just have this itch to be more active, to be able to walk around and do things without getting tired or sore too quickly. Running seemed to be the perfect way to build my endurance there. It turns out that it does a lot more; it's an instant mood-boost, it helps me build discipline that I need to actually get other things done, and it's a strange, spiritual tip-o-the-ears to Rabbit. Few things center me as well and as reliably as running does.

So those are my five words. Do you want some of your own? :)
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take a picture of yourself right now.don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture.
post that picture with NO editing.
post these instructions with your picture.

Me, Just up in the morning, before coffee. I look best with a prominent forehead.
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Taken from [livejournal.com profile] bamboofae and [livejournal.com profile] reahkitty, and a few other people, I'm sure.

Your result for Reincarnation Placement Exam...

Starfleet Crewperson

62% Intrigue, 66% Civilization, 62% Humanity, 54% Urbanization.

As Mister Spock would say: Fascinating. It seems you've managed to hit the edge of the curve on all metrics. An extraordinary life is almost certain.

According to your answers, you want it all, you want a lot of it, and you're willing to do what it takes to get it! Adventure! Romance! Technology! Challenge! You love civilization. You like people. You love the complications and joys of a big, weird crowd of humans plus lots of other beings wandering into dangerous and complicated corners of the galaxy.

There is an ideal place for you, and you are ideal for it: Welcome to the crew of the starship Enterprise. Captain Kirk would have welcomed you aboard himself, but his head was too big to fit in the landing bay.

Take Reincarnation Placement Exam at HelloQuizzy

I'm not sure how true that is, but I'll take it. Something tells me I'd spend an awful lot of time on the Holodeck though. Just call me Barclay.


Sep. 16th, 2008 10:57 am
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I've been going through a funk recently, which means that I didn't want to flood my journal with my particular brand of insecurity right now. Now that I'm coming out of it, I want to pick myself back up and dust off my journaling habit. We'll take baby steps, first, no? This meme from [livejournal.com profile] ladyperegrine seems like a good way to reconnect.

1* Leave me a comment saying, “Interview me.”

2* I will respond by asking you 5 questions of a very personal nature.

3* You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.

4* You will include this and an offer to interview someone else in the post.

5* When others comment asking to be interviewed you will ask them 5 questions.

The interview questions might be a long time in coming, especially if I don't know you too well. I have to do research after all, to write good questions. :) If you want to ask me a follow-up question based on the original five, feel free. I like answering them, it turns out.

1. If being mindful is part of your spiritual practice, when/where do you feel that you are best able to enter that state of awareness/mindfulness? If not, then which parts of Buddhist teachings do you incorporate into your spirituality?

*wry grin* Being mindful is definitely a part of my spiritual practice, though it's not as big a part as I'd like it to be. Isn't that always the way?

I'm a morning person, through and through, and I feel like I'm best able to keep focused and mindful then. I meditate in the mornings, enjoy the relative quiet before people are up, and try to prepare for the day ahead. After that, there's the drive into town with Ryan, and the walk to work, and breakfast. Every thing I do until the work day starts is a reminder for me to be present, and I often take the time to make sure I'm focused on what I'm doing there. I lose that during the day, after interacting with so many people, I'm afraid.

That's the true test for me; taking the mindset I've cultivated in the mornings through the rest of my day. I'm getting better at it, slowly, but it's a process.

2. What has been the most fun part about planning your wedding to toob?

Honestly, the tuxedo rental. I have to admit I'm kind of a clothing geek, so everything from trying to find the best look to getting measured to picking out accessories was a real treat for me. I've never worn a tuxedo before, so I'm really looking forward to it.

Getting the marriage license was a close second. It was like a small taste of the ceremony to come; both [livejournal.com profile] toob and I feel that the institution of marriage is bigger than ourselves, more sacred, a commitment, a bond, a declaration, a symbol of being spiritually linked, no matter what happens, from this point on. The civil side of it is just a way of expressing this that everyone can agree on.

3. What is one of your favorite songs right now, and how do you feel when you listen to it?

"Humble Me" by Norah Jones. She gets a lot of flack for being so mellow, but this song just grabs me and won't let go. I've been coming out of a depression recently, so my favorite songs right now are the ones that are melancholy and weary, but encourage you to keep going somehow. Yeah, they're depressing, but there's this core of optimism buried in the heart of it that affects you strongly.

The song is about a woman calling an ex who's moved on. It's sung simply, but the writing is wonderful. The shorthand lets you fill in the blanks with whatever you'd like, and your imagination is going to do a better job of making the whole thing as bleak as possible. After listening to the song I feel depressed, but grateful in a way. I feel compassion for all of the people I see with their own private stories and hidden pains. You never know who's going through a rough time.

In a way, it makes me feel connected with the people around me. It takes me out of my head and into the universality of suffering, and it makes me realize that everyone gets down, that we're all in this together. Most importantly, more than anything most people just want someone to reach out to them when they're in pain, and sometimes the best way to relieve your own suffering is to ease that of the people around you.

4. What is your favorite body of water of those you have visited and why?

I have to admit I'm a big fan of rivers in theory, but I haven't been to one that really grabbed me for one reason or another. I guess nothing compares to the river in Kenneth Grahame's The Wind in the Willows.

Maybe it's because I live so close to it, and there have been so many memories associated with it, but the Pacific Ocean has to be my favorite body of water. The sunsets here over the ocean are just hearbreakingly gorgeous, and it makes you feel incredibly small. It's hard to fathom that what you're looking at is just the beginning of an extraordinary distance, and there's a different world contained in it. It's frightening and fascinating at the same time.

5. Which piece of writing that you have done are you most proud of?

I've been published a time or two now, and there's a special place in my heart for the poetry that other people have seen. :) My favorite writing is almost always semi-autobiographical in nature, though. I feel most accomplished when I've purged some personal demon or a painful memory in a way I think other people can relate to.

I wrote this poem sometime in 1998 that I titled "Road Trip," which is this purging process thinly disguised as a road poem. If I were to look back on it now I'd realize how loose the illusions are and how the whole thing should be rewritten, but even still it was the first time I distinctly experienced the power of poetry as communication and prayer and therapy wrapped in one neat little package. It was a rush to write, a joy to edit, and I loved reading it back in college.

These days, though, I'm most proud of any piece of writing that I actually finish. ;)
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Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

HBPS - The Optimist

Humanity, Background, Big Picture, and Shape

You perceive the world with particular attention to humanity. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the shapes around you. Because of the value you place on humanity, you tend to seek out other people and get energized by being around others. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You prefer a structured environment within which to live and you like things to be predictable.

The Perception Personality Types:


Take The Perception Personality Image Test at HelloQuizzy

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Weight This Week: 174.0 lbs.
Weight Last Week: 170.2 lbs.
Change: +3.8 lbs.

Time: 27 minutes
Distance: 2.50 miles
Top Speed: 6.2 mph
Calories: 260

Continuing to work my way back into fighting shape. :) I'd like to say the weight gain was all muscle (Rar!), but I haven't been eating the best. This week I'm really going to try and focus on my diet. I'll try to stick to lean meats, healthy meals, reasonable snacks, and away from little 'treats' that deep-six any good eating choices I've made. I have a fondness for indulging in a chocolate or two during a particularly rough day, or having a couple of slices of bacon with breakfast.

In other news, yes, this is a very adequate representation of how I roll. It's a wonder [livejournal.com profile] toob puts up with me sometimes.

Your result for The Attachment Style Test...

The Waffler

44% Anxiety Over Abandonment and 38% Avoidance Of Intimacy

You're not the most decisive person. You tend to be unsure what you want out of your attachments, and it's unlikely you've had more than mediocre relationships. You vacillate between trust and mistrust, and between low and high self-esteem. You probably have a couple of good friends who support you and believe in you, but you tend not to let things get too heavy. You like to sit on fences.

Fictional character with whom you might identify: Xander (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Amelie (Amelie)

XanderHarris.jpg Amelie.jpg

Other Attachment Types:
Secure: The Unicorn | The Cuddleslut | The Free Agent
Preoccupied: The Cling Wrap | The Squid | The Insect
Fearful: The Doormat | The Leper | The Exile
Dismissing: The Hermit | The Stone | The Player
Confused: The Waffler

Take The Attachment Style Test at HelloQuizzy

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Time: 25 minutes
Distance: 2.27 miles
Top Speed: 6.2 mph
Calories: 234

And a meme!

Your result for The Deep and Meaningful Winnie-The-Pooh Character Test...


"We can't get down, we can't get down!" cried Roo.
"Isn't it fun? Pooh, isn't it fun, Tigger and I are living in a
tree, like Owl, and we're going to stay here for ever and ever.
I can see Piglet's house. Piglet, I can see your house from
here. Aren't we high? Is Owl's house as high up as this?"

"How did you get there, Roo?" asked Piglet.

"On Tigger's back! And Tiggers can't climb downwards,
because their tails get in the way, only upwards, and Tigger
forgot about that when we started, and he's only just
remembered. So we've got to stay here for ever and ever--unless
we go higher. What did you say, Tigger? Oh, Tigger says if we
go higher we shan't be able to see Piglet's house so well, so
we're going to stop here."

You scored as Roo!

ABOUT ROO: Roo lives with his mother and his friend Tigger. He is the youngest member of the Hundred Acre Wood, and loves to go along with his friends on their adventures - when Kanga will let him. No matter what happens to Roo, be it falling into the river, getting stuck in a tree, or being kidnapped by near-strangers, he enjoys ever minute of it. Roo isn't one to worry about such things. That's Kanga's job.

WHAT THIS SAYS ABOUT YOU; You are a positive, fun loving person. You take life as it comes, and feel sure that everything will be all right. You can usually find a silver lining on every cloud.

It's lucky that your friends find you so endearing, because you do tend to lean on them a lot. You are not always very self sufficient. You tend to rely on the help of your family or friends when things get tough. You don't always take the initiative to do things for yourself. You feel like you can't do a very good job at these things, so instead you ask your more capable friends and family to help you. It's time you decided to stand on your own two feet!

Take The Deep and Meaningful Winnie-The-Pooh Character Test at HelloQuizzy


Apr. 21st, 2008 04:56 pm
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My Personality
Openness to Experience
You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up, however you will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered.

Take a Personality Test now or view the full Personality Report.

The best Ugg Boots.

Warts and all, I guess.
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You are The Magician

Skill, wisdom, adaptation. Craft, cunning, depending on dignity.

Eleoquent and charismatic both verbally and in writing,
you are clever, witty, inventive and persuasive.

The Magician is the male power of creation, creation by willpower and desire. In that ancient sense, it is the ability to make things so just by speaking them aloud. Reflecting this is the fact that the Magician is represented by Mercury. He represents the gift of tongues, a smooth talker, a salesman. Also clever with the slight of hand and a medicine man - either a real doctor or someone trying to sell you snake oil.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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Your Score: The Wolf

You scored 48% domestic, 60% gregarious, 39% trickster, and 38% intellect!

Wild, Gregarious, Serious and Emotional: you are the Wolf!

Wolf people tend to revere individualism, but retain a predominant sense of family. Wolf represents all aspects of sociability, and the need for variety (in internal and external affairs) to remain healthy. Wolf is a strong symbol of loyalty and patience. Wolf medicine is deeply rooted in the importance of learning through teaching, new ideas, freedom of mind and body, and responsibility for self and others.

This test categorized you based on four different axes of personality, which were then associated with a different animal. The four axes, as well as all possible results are explained below.

Wild/Domestic: This first axis categorizes you based on how much you are drawn to the outdoors, versus how much you are drawn to civilized situations. Domesticity has many shapes and forms, and varies from the joy of dolphins leaping next to a ship to the steadfast loyalty of a family dog.

Gregarious/Solitary: This axis measures how solitary you are. If you scored high, it means that you enjoy the company of other people, while a low score indicates that you prefer a more solitary lifestyle.

Trickster/Serious: This axis measures how well you line up with conventional trickster archetypes. People who fall into this archetype have a sense of humor and an excitable, highly chaotic streak. Scoring low doesn't mean that you don't have a sense of humor; it just means that you probably don't think dynamite is very funny.

Intellectual/Emotional: This last axis determines whether you are more emotional -- acting based on feelings and instinct, or rational and intelectual -- acting more on thought than on your gut feelings.

WildGregariousTricksterIntellectualThe Hyena
WildGregariousTricksterEmotionalThe Otter
WildGregariousSeriousIntellectualThe Antelope
WildGregariousSeriousEmotionalThe Wolf
WildSolitaryTricksterIntellectualThe Weasel
WildSolitaryTricksterEmotionalThe Coyote
WildSolitarySeriousIntellectualThe Raven
WildSolitarySeriousEmotionalThe Frog
DomesticGregariousTricksterIntellectualThe Fox
DomesticGregariousTricksterEmotionalThe Dolphin
DomesticGregariousSeriousIntellectualThe Horse
DomesticGregariousSeriousEmotionalThe Dog
DomesticSolitaryTricksterIntellectualThe Rat
DomesticSolitaryTricksterEmotionalThe Ferret
DomesticSolitarySeriousIntellectualThe Cat
DomesticSolitarySeriousEmotionalThe Squirrel

Link: The Animal Archetype Test written by crumpetsfortea on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

No, seriously. How many of you are out there laughing at the very idea right now? Come on? Cop to it! I'LL RIP OUT YOUR THROAT RIGHT NOW

Erf. Sorry, don't know what came over me. :)

The way they describe it, I can see it, but....still. Damn. I'm amused.
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What's my spirit animal? )

Apparently, these are pretty rare to get, so go me. I wonder where rabbits fall in this particular list.
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I've been incommunicado with a lot of people for the past month or so, especially all of you wonderful people down in Arkansas. Truly sorry about that; I'm in a strange headspace right now, and I'm struggling through it without getting more folks involved than is absolutely necessary. :)

It's an omen, to me at least, that my final days at work coincide with the waning phases of the moon. In fact, the one vacation day I get between jobs on Thursday is the day of the new moon exactly. I'll end one livelihood when the moon shrinks down to nothing behind Earth's shadow and begin another when it starts to rebuild itself again.

I am probably making this out to be more momentous than it really is. People change jobs all the time, after all, for a whole host of reasons. However, this is...well, a pretty big career changer for me. It's a long way to Adobe offices from the hallowed halls of used bookstores. I'm wondering what parts of me will be called up in this new environment, what parts of me will be quietly (or violently) forced down. More than anything I'm wondering how well I can keep a fairly compassionate and mindful disposition when I'm wearing new oxfords that have yet to break in and a button-down shirt that makes me feel like I'm slowly being suffocated, and will run out of air by the time I'm 65. We'll see, I suppose. The whole reason I'm doing this in the first place is to try something new.

Writing is creeping along. I'm getting more relaxed about it all the time, and I'm learning to view the process of shitty first drafts as a joy rather than a terrifying thing. Deep in the darkest corners of my most reptilian brain is the idea that once I write a story, it's carved in stone. Once a character does something, it can't be taken back. That's the way it shall be forever, and I'm powerless to change that. This might have something to do with the rather moonbat theory that when I'm really into a story, when it 'grows legs,' as it were, I'm not so much writing as channeling something that's happening. I look for the moment when I'm no longer in control of it, and characters and plots and entire worlds just roll on without my input. Writing becomes, at that point, not a conscious exercise of the imagination, but merely looking through a window and reporting what I see.

The trouble is, it's been a very long time since any story of mine has grown any sort of legs. I'm just too uptight.

I've taken to writing little snippets of flash fiction here or there, and they probably won't see the light of day beyond certain circles. It's mostly for getting myself comfortable with writing again, and it's working, slowly but surely. I'm also beginning to see the importance of a quiet, comfortable space to work in.

Ah well, all things told things are pretty good. Since no post would be complete without a meme, here it is: 5 questions from new LJ friend [livejournal.com profile] dethstryke

In the interest of getting to know folks better, just respond to this post with something obvious like, "Ask me 5 questions." and I'll do so. Post the answers in your own journal and do the same for others if asked. There we go!

My five questions. )

Next: a big long introspective post on how I came to Zen Buddhism, since someone asked.
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I've taken the test a few times, changing the variables according to mood and shifting self-image, and I always seem to end up with a wildcat -- either lynx or ocelot. :) We'll see if other people think the same way.

On Writing

Feb. 16th, 2007 07:51 am
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Maybe it was the way I started the day, or maybe it was the fact that I hadn't had any caffeine, or maybe it was the fact that it was stupendously busy all last night, but I fell into a pretty big hole about my writing. That happens to everyone, I'm sure, so it's really nothing earth-shattering. I just thought I would get better about talking about it. Maybe this should even go up on [livejournal.com profile] writerrabbit, but I wanted to splice in general things for stuff as well.

I've signed up to submit a story for the next Writer's Group meeting. Beyond all of the macrophile ideas I have (which I don't think would be quite appropriate), I have one idea for a short story based on a universe I've been percolating for quite some time now. The world first popped into my head as an idea for a comic book, based on Beak, a character from Grant Morrisson's run on New X-Men. The idea of thousands of years of evolution betraying you in such a cruel (yet inherently amusing!) way was very appealing to me. Other people get beyond-cosmic, world-breaking powers, you get hollow bones and useless, vestigial feathers.

Anyway, to explore the world a little bit more, I thought it would be a good idea to tweak a short story idea that I had been thinking of with 'all human' characters and putting it in the setting. Of course, the story has changed many times since then, so the original 'boy-wants-girl' premise is buried under a lot of other...stuff. (I don't want to talk too much about it, since a lot of the writer's group reads this.) The changing isn't something I mind; I've already written a 'first draft' that's nowhere near what I want the story to be, so this is more of a 'draft 2.5.' What's getting me is how, the more I think about the setting, the more it seems to change; it's growing legs and running away from me faster than I can write.

If I had all day to just sit around and noodle with it for a while, it might be better. But I keep writing a page or two in the 30 minutes or so I have free, thinking about it, and seeing a million ways those pages can be better. I'm in this continual loop of self-editing, and because I don't have time to vomit words onto the page I just can't 'get something down' and go back over it in total later. It's really destroying my ability to follow through on this.

I'm not sure if it's the setting that's broken, or the story, or what. I actually feel like I can identify with everyone in the story except the two main characters, and there's the problem. I need to spend more time inside their heads...but the problem is I just don't have time to do that. Especially now there's a deadline to meet.

There's the thought of banging out a smaller, simpler story and submitting that, but no ideas come to mind. For some reason, I can never think of a nice, small, 15 page story; they're always five and six part epics or something lame like that. [livejournal.com profile] daroneasa and [livejournal.com profile] cloakedwanderer have seriously rubbed off on me. :P

Hopefully I can blast through the blocks this weekend, with vast amounts of down time. We'll keep our fingers crossed, anyway.

About the friend test: I think absolutely everyone (except for [livejournal.com profile] mut) got the siblings question wrong. A lot of other people got the 'first dream job' question and birth year thing wrong, too.

In the interest of fairness, here are some answers.

Pepperidge Farm remembers... )

Now, off to work!
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Create your own Friend Test here

Wow, so there's an open wireless connection accessible from my workplace! I can now check e-mail and stuff during my lunch break! Woo hoo!

But, discipline dictates that I work on my story only during my break, and don't blow the whole lunch hour cruising LiveJournal. ;)

In the meantime, here's a friend test!


Nov. 21st, 2006 08:34 am
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To everyone who went to MFF, welcome back! I hope you had a good time. :)

The past two weekends have been spent out of town for us, so I'm really looking forward to a relatively lazy, food-filled Thanksgiving. :) I'd like to say stuff about what happened, but there's no time. Instead, a quiz!

Behind an LJ cut for those who don't care for gaming geekery. )

I really need to find an RPG. Wah wah, bitch bitch bitch.

Off to work!

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